There is a darkness
Its inside of my mind 
Its inside of my head
Its taking over slowly
And it wont stop
Its spreading to my heart 
And all the pain wont stop
There is a darkness 
And its breaking me 

Somewhere
Hidden in a meadow
Filled with soft grass and wildflowers
There is a girl
With her head resting 
Using the soft grass as a pillow
She is silently looking at the blue sky 
And she knows she is fading 
Her mind drifts back to the moment
She was taken
From her home
From her family
She didnt know how to stop him
And she didnt do what he said 
She would rather keep being herself then to listen to...

There's this boy I know 
He is my whole world
But he thinks he is a monster
There's this boy that I know
He is so kind and so full of life
But he can't see all the good he does
There's this boy I know 
He makes me feel like I deserve the world
But he thinks he will hurt me
There's this boy I know
He is the first person i've told everything to in a long time ...

What's a family?
Does it consist of parents and children? 
Is it perfect harmony? 
I grew up in a family 
(I think)
Im not sure what all happened
Im not sure when I stopped believing in family
Im not sure when I started asking the question
What's a family? 

I've been told im pretty
Pretty means perfect in this world
Perfect means flawless
Flawless means unbroken
Unbroken means no problems and no heart break
I cant be pretty under the worlds standards
Pretty has too many meanings
Pretty means perfect 
Perfect means flawless 
Flawless means unbroken
Unbroken means no problems and no heart break 
With the way the world is 
No one can be pretty 
And no one can be enough 
Because the world wants to see no problems...

You know life goes by pretty fast and the good moments are always overlooked. When the bad moments come, it seems to hit us like a freight train because we havent seen the little victories. 2020 and 2019 were really hard years for me to face. Mid 2019, my dad was diagnosed with a rare disease called poems disease. This disease changed my dad's life and put him at risk to die. When something happens like that it really changes...