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Call me Emery
I'm an INFJ but I want to define myself

Message from Writer

"We all die. The goal is not to live forever, the goal is to create something that will."- Chuck Palahniuk
Hi. Tell me something good.
I'm not okay sometimes. How are you?

Published Work

I need help

I need help.
Most times when I try to tell you
my brain tells me to shut up.
Most times I do.

Sometimes I get lucky
and I tell you
but then you ask
"well, what's wrong?"

and by then my brain
has made me go silent again.
I'm sorry.
I wish it was easier.

I'm lucky. 
Lots of people can't get the help I have.
I just can't use it.

be human

i want the world to be good. i want to believe that humans are good./ they are not. / look at the stats. /
it's sad to love people and have them tell you / you are invalid. / fact = you are invalid / they say so. /
it's sad to love people and have them say / you don't struggle / that problem isn't real. /
why are we all so lost? why do we confuse each other? why do we judge, when we can understand? /
i don't understand why we keep hurting , using , abusing people. /
i don't under stand why we chose / chose to hurt humans. /
be good / no, be human. /
let us be human together. /
feel , live , love ,
and if we have to hurt, let us hurt together. /
what is human without love? /
what is this world without love? / please listen.

can i leave the name?

the other day, i read something about how people
think of your name every time they think of you
and how that is were they categorize everything
they know about you

and i had never thought about this until then.
Lindsey-  it's plain, common, nothing interesting.
i don't like it i decided.
i looked it up, just to find out what it means. 

it means "island of linden trees"
to some linden trees are holy.
i wonder if an island of them would be special.
linden trees are supposed to symbolize:

"love, fertility, prosperity, fidelity, friendship, peace, justice, altruism, good luck".
is that who I'm supposed to be?
it sounds good but what if i can't be peaceful?
what if i don't have friends?

if this is who i am supposed to be why don't i like the sound of it?

Courtney Martain Had It Right

"We are the daughters of feminists who said 'You can be anything,' and we heard, 'You have to be everything." -Courtney Martain

Wanting, needing, trying to be everything
will end you
at least impare your hope
probably your will to live.

I'm not sure what it is but there is such
an allure to ambition
an allure
to always keep moving
an allure
to never not have a goal
an allure
to restlessness
an allure
to overworking
an allure
to burnout.

Is it the things we desire or
the things we can't reach
that destroy us?