Today
Today was a special day
Today held the first morning
Today
That you were not my initial thought 
Today 

Today was a special day

3 WEEKS, 6 HOURS, 12 MINUTES, 2 SECONDS BEFORE RUNNING, 8 DAYS AFTER THE INVITATION

Finally, it's lunch. The only period I get to see Cecelia at school. We had a few classes together last year, but our classes (even though they are literally the same subject) are spread out time-wise. It sucks. At least I get to see her here. And of course, our other friends except for Astrid and Mark.
We sit down in our usual spot by...

I'm sorry
I'm sorry I wasn't a better friend
I'm sorry I wasn't a better classmate.
I would've listened. 
But you didn't mean to hurt me
Or our friends
I know you didn't because you have one of the sweetest souls
You sat next to me 
And you listened
I'm sorry I couldn't return the favor
I'm sorry I didn't get to hug you one last time
I'm sorry that I never told you how much I appreciate you
I...

My drawstrings keep me safe 
I have a place to hide
I feel so overwhelmed
And so I crawl inside
In this sweatshirt
I am safe
I don't have to witness
How my whole world breaks 
It crashes and there's shards 
All over the floor 
As soon as I look out
You're already halfway out the door 
I really can't bear having you leave
And I really hate the fact
Without you, I can't breathe
I'll learn to inhale
I...

1 MONTH, 8 DAYS, 4 HOURS, 34 MINUTES, 8 SECONDS BEFORE

I get a phone call from my mom. She's probably calling me again for the fifth time this week to tell me about my "responsibilities" and how I'm just so "lazy". 
"Hello? Hello young lady? Why didn't you do the dishes like I asked? You could've at least rinsed your plate after dinner."

"Sorry, Mom. I forgot. I'm on my way home from school right now. I'll do them...

I'm so happy you got out from the landslide that I was. 
Unscathed
Unchanged
Because I
Who once stood tall, 
A proud mountain of beauty and skill and talent
Am now the deepest, most deadly valley you could possibly imagine. 
I've eroded from your acid rain words 
I try to build myself up
But with every drop you still manage to cause my crumbling 
You run away and say you were not the one to scream such sour sobs 
That...