rat in a hat

United States

i'm pretentious and annoying but i think that's okay, i own two lava lamps. i love spider-man, ABBA, anything muppet-related, bill and ted, and matt fraction’s hawkeye. i hate sitcom laugh tracks.

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currently listening to stargazing by the neighbourhood

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dear emily

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i don’t love you.
i did once.
i remember that much.

emily, did you know i’d end up like this one day?
you made predictions but they were sickly sweet and superficial
like how i wouldn’t look good with bangs, my forehead’s too short for them
or how our middle school trio would fizzle out before we graduated 
your mom guessed that one. she guessed right
three friends hooked at the hip
i remember how the blade used to pierce...

6 days ago

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i've told you i loved you before but never like this

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imagine i am throwing pebbles at your back window
the one your metal headboard presses up against
you push away the curtain and you see me and you see me circling my index finger to say “come downstairs, meet me outside your laundry room”
and you do, and you open your door, and i grab you by the collar of your t-shirt and twist
your face not even an inch from mine
there is a pause, just a second of...

2 months ago

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a crow rests on your fingertip and it’s like i’ve always known you

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i think everybody is a little bit in love with you, all of the time
and so i wish i was more in love with you than i am
i wish when we met, i fell into an endless pit
there is a sign on the edge that reads DANGER: [YOUR NAME]
and i read it but i dangled my feet over the abyss anyways
this didn’t happen. i wish it had.
instead i stood, still close enough to the...
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2 months ago

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digestive acid in my lungs and it tastes like costco lasagna

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i hate poetry
so i only write it when my heart is broken
i hate poetry, so i come back again and again, pen in hand

i’m leaving everything i’m supposed to love
this is not a metaphor, it’s a plain, undressed fact
this is what’s simple,
that i am a coward who despises cowards and i run and i run and i run and i’m running again,
mud-caked boots trapped in my armpit

this is what’s easy, 
that i...
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4 months ago

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i feel your fingers rearranging my spotify playlists

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i dreamt about you again
not last night, but the night before
and it was weird, because i’ve dreamt about you many times and it always goes like this:
we meet, and i’m ecstatic to see you
i fling my arms around you, we stay together, and i think things are looking up
but you don’t look at me the same way
(i haven’t seen you smile at me in well over a year now, not even in my dreams) ...

6 months ago

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keanu reeves, or cinema's silver screen of living

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it is a thursday evening, crammed onto the maroon couch in front of the television
and you are mourning the loss of celebrities you knew in the sixties
what a shame, that the actors we once loved are dead
and i think to myself, that’s silly
all celebrities are dead
it is the cycle of fame,
the cycle of life,
to perish and be reborn countless times
so quickly that sometimes we don’t notice it happen at all

you talk...
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7 months ago

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how does it feel to have a nuclear war raging inside you?

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you’ve forgotten the way anger heats up your ribcage
white-hot, it melts your bones and they curl inwards
you’ve forgotten fury and the futility that comes with
and wouldn’t you love to scream?
wouldn’t you love to shatter windows and smash drywall until your knuckles bleed?
you don’t, but your soul aches to cause destruction and set your world aflame
there is a bright red button on your chest
under protective glass and you have never pushed it
but you’ve...
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7 months ago

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late night ice cream runs outside the gas station mart

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someone once taught us that poetry wasn’t meant to be written about the ordinary

well, i lay here on your bed a little past two in the morning 
and roll over to look at you
talking excitedly at the ceiling about muppets, or music, or something in between
i don’t know. 
i’m tired, and even if i don’t catch everything you say, i still know what you mean
i’ve always known just what you meant
we say the same things...
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7 months ago

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we are human

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and we are not meant to rip off our skin and scoop out our organs and replace them with those belonging to someone else
we are human, and we are meant to create and re-create
and reinvent ourselves a thousand times

so we do,
as we shake off our inhibitions and the little flecks of our smile that don’t fit quite right
and reshape it into that of another soul’s 
as the velvet curtains glide open and the spotlight hits...
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8 months ago

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streaks of pink on a sapphire and gold night (how long has it been since i saw life in color?)

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i’m in love with something and i can’t name what it is

after six years, i found you again
i hadn’t been searching, but i had heard rumors and i was wondering
once upon a time we knew each other in a way few others did
because you lost someone you loved and i stepped in
and no matter how hard you pushed,
no matter how many times you stretched me to my limit to see if i would leave ...
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8 months ago