rat in a hat

United States

i'm pretentious and annoying but i think that's okay, i own two lava lamps. i love spider-man, ABBA, anything muppet-related, bill and ted, and john everett millais' rendition of ophelia. i hate sitcom laugh tracks.

chaotic good

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love your friends and be as stupid as you can be <2

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i feel your fingers rearranging my spotify playlists

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i dreamt about you again
not last night, but the night before
and it was weird, because i’ve dreamt about you many times and it always goes like this:
we meet, and i’m ecstatic to see you
i fling my arms around you, we stay together, and i think things are looking up
but you don’t look at me the same way
(i haven’t seen you smile at me in well over a year now, not even in my dreams) ...

7 days ago

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keanu reeves, or cinema's silver screen of living

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it is a thursday evening, crammed onto the maroon couch in front of the television
and you are mourning the loss of celebrities you knew in the sixties
what a shame, that the actors we once loved are dead
and i think to myself, that’s silly
all celebrities are dead
it is the cycle of fame,
the cycle of life,
to perish and be reborn countless times
so quickly that sometimes we don’t notice it happen at all

you talk...
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about 2 months ago

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how does it feel to have a nuclear war raging inside you?

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you’ve forgotten the way anger heats up your ribcage
white-hot, it melts your bones and they curl inwards
you’ve forgotten fury and the futility that comes with
and wouldn’t you love to scream?
wouldn’t you love to shatter windows and smash drywall until your knuckles bleed?
you don’t, but your soul aches to cause destruction and set your world aflame
there is a bright red button on your chest
under protective glass and you have never pushed it
but you’ve...
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about 2 months ago

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late night ice cream runs outside the gas station mart

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someone once taught us that poetry wasn’t meant to be written about the ordinary

well, i lay here on your bed a little past two in the morning 
and roll over to look at you
talking excitedly at the ceiling about muppets, or music, or something in between
i don’t know. 
i’m tired, and even if i don’t catch everything you say, i still know what you mean
i’ve always known just what you meant
we say the same things...
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about 2 months ago

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we are human

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and we are not meant to rip off our skin and scoop out our organs and replace them with those belonging to someone else
we are human, and we are meant to create and re-create
and reinvent ourselves a thousand times

so we do,
as we shake off our inhibitions and the little flecks of our smile that don’t fit quite right
and reshape it into that of another soul’s 
as the velvet curtains glide open and the spotlight hits...
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2 months ago

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streaks of pink on a sapphire and gold night (how long has it been since i saw life in color?)

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i’m in love with something and i can’t name what it is

after six years, i found you again
i hadn’t been searching, but i had heard rumors and i was wondering
once upon a time we knew each other in a way few others did
because you lost someone you loved and i stepped in
and no matter how hard you pushed,
no matter how many times you stretched me to my limit to see if i would leave ...
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3 months ago

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dive underwater and remember the three rules your mother gave you

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sugar still dissolves in my mouth, but i can’t stand its flavor anymore
what once tasted like summer and flowers, 
sweet and grassy and crisp
(i remember eating chives straight off the stem and sucking down nectar at outdoor festivals. did it taste like honey because all of the honey that melted on our tongues those days, or did it taste like honey because we were golden and melting in the warm light of the sun?)
now tastes bitter, sour,...
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3 months ago

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if we had never left the common couch, my dear,

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i miss the feeling of my laces pulled taut against the pads of my fingers
looped tightly between my index and thumb
you remember polaroids. you talk about it constantly
the click of the camera and the blinding light of your friends’ smiles
me, i miss the even simpler things
like putting my converse on (when they used to fit me, of course) and climbing trees
it’s that canvas sensation against my toes
it is. it is. i don’t know...
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3 months ago

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summertime and a longing you've never felt before

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robin, flitting above my head
i see how you long to rest your wings on the clouds

do you think we bloom and grow underneath fruit trees?
because under my cherry tree in this july heat, i know i do
it is such an easy rhythm
to pull one off from the branch (i know which are ripe without giving it much thought, i’ve been doing this for years) and pop it into my mouth
bite down in the just...
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4 months ago

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ikea armchairs and a blinking light you fall asleep to

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life is taking too long

i am weary of sitting in the same three chairs every day
i am weary of watching the same videos and never speaking to anyone but my mother and my father
i am tired of this,
it has been 382 days and it isn’t over yet
someone will see me, one day, and they will remember not all but most everything
will i be the loss in their minds or will it be the memory? ...
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4 months ago