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erinsheckard38

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erinsheckard38 (United States) published:

Make Her Proud

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I was bottle fed self hatred to the ever revolving soundtrack of self doubt. 
My mother fed me insecurities every day for twelve years until I told her I was tired of her shit. 
But here’s the problem:
Once you get the taste for something, it never really goes away. 
Even today I find myself gorging on my insecurities and self hatred. 
The record holding my self doubt is so worn down but it still plays. 
I know exactly where...

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over 1 year ago

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Technicolor Miracle

PROMPT: Beyond Reason

What are you if not a technicolor miracle?
What color makes you smile the brightest?
What secrets do you hide behind that very smile?
What does the curve of you lips look like when you say my name?

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over 1 year ago

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10 Truths

PROMPT: 10 Second Essays

  1. How do you make starvation of the mind scream?
  2. What's left to speak to at a grave?
  3. After long enough, pain becomes muscle memory and impulse.
  4. Silence is best when all the words left unsaid are understood.
  5. My chest is a black hole, a vortex into which my misery is pulled.
  6. The duality of pain is the loss and the freedom, the rope and the sword.
  7. Rage is useless in the picture of grief because the dead don't have ears...
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about 2 years ago

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While the Sky was Crying

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It's only four hours into the day,
and it's already shit. 
It's been a week
since he was shoved ungracefully into the ground. 
It's been a year since I felt anything at all. 

Yesterday, it rained. 
No, not from my eyes, but maybe, most likely, it should have. 
I don't know how to say this,
but I need you. 
I need you more than the dried up corn he once tended so carefully needs water. 
I need you because the...

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over 2 years ago

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Mother

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Tell me why you did it, will you?
Why you let her do that to me. 
Tell me why, mother,
why you're so unfeeling. 
You let her attack me,
belittle me,
intimidate me,
confront me,
block me,
terrify me,
and you lie to me. 
You say you love me,
but you lie. 

You told me to 'put my differences aside.'
I did. 
That, and anxiety,
my fear,
my anger,
and I was stopped. 
Told not to 'dictate'
like I'm the...

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over 2 years ago

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Petite Fille (Little Girl) #2

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Look at that, little girl. 
That overwhelming guilt is still your best friend, isn't it, little girl?
Just because you made a decision to save yourself doesn't mean you have to like it, little girl. 
You can't pay homage to a man that's not laying in that casket, little girl. 
You know in your heart of hearts that a man laying in a suit isn't the farmer you had wrapped around your little finger, little girl. 
That's not the man...

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over 2 years ago

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Petite Fille (Little Girl)

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When your broken rhymes won't save your soul
grin into the mirror, the camera. 
Just grin. 
Bear it. 
Soldier on, little girl. 
You have an appearance to uphold, little girl. 

So sob in the dark, little girl. 
Have your nightmares, little girl. 
Go through your therapy, alone, little girl. 
Try to make her see, little girl. 
I don't trust him, Mom. 
Do this one thing for me, Mom. 

Get shot down, little girl. 
She doesn't care, little girl. 
His feelings...

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over 2 years ago

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The Magic Trick

PROMPT: Monologue

It all started with the magic trick. That one simple trick that has a five-year-old's eyes blown wide. The simple hidden pocket on the inside of the hat, or the card stuck to the forehead, the exact same one you were sure you put back in the deck. And then it goes from there. Pulling rabbits from hats and eating fire. Making a woman disappear or, hell, cutting her in half. The thing that keeps the audience interested is the...

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over 2 years ago

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Green Tea Volumes I-X

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Volume I

I think it would have been better
if you died.
Since you left willingly,
it only made it hurt
that much more...

Volume II

I expected you to be here
looking out for me
until I graduated.
You promised.
You promised me so many things.
What about them now?
Opportunities
have crumbled
at my feet.

Volume III

I forgot what you sounded like.
I forgot your mannerisms.
I forgot you.
But maybe that's a good thing.

Volume IV
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over 2 years ago

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Hymn of the Anxious

PROMPT: Imagine This

Imagine this: A girl who can't breathe, out of her mind with anxiety. Across the room, a boy watches with concern as she shakes, as she's escorted from the room. The day passes and they see little of each other due to the restriction of different classes. She finds him at the end of the day, at his locker, and she's curled in on her self, wanting to be folded small enough to disappear. "She can't do anything to you."...

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over 2 years ago