allpda2003

United States of America

I write for myself... mainly.

I write about or within the head space of what I feel, which is honestly often infatuated.

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I plainly hope you enjoy what you read.

allpda2003 (United States of America)() published:

Saving Daylight for New Year's Day

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Do you remember the sound of a bomb hitting the ground? When the explosion hits, you hear this big, loud boom. That’s what everyone focuses on, but after the explosion, the vibrations kick in, and you hear this wobbly, cataclysmic wind that spreads out. A monstrous wave of this heavy sound, trembling and attacking your entire catalog of senses. It whistles and rings, pounding on your ear drums. Even if you cover your ears and shut your eyes, you will...

about 2 months ago

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allpda2003 (United States of America)() published:

[i think] everyone hates me

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and I get it too
like
yeah

I'm such a 
god damn loser
it makes sense

I'm stupid but smart
I'm emotional but I guess
a robot too
and I don't do
drugs or alcohol
I volunteer to celibacy 
I'm white, but not
I'm romantic but
I'm not manly
I'm not much of anything
but a punchline
or sob story

I could ask for it 
to stop
but what's the point
they can
never hate me
as much as I
hate...

2 months ago

allpda2003 (United States of America)() published:

timothee chalamet

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she likes the
tall boys 
with dark hair
pale skin
the pretty boys
not me

she has so many 
after her all the time
i'm just a trailing sheep
late to the party

she can never choose
from her sea of suitors
not one to be 
too scared to get close

so why should I 
try my stupid luck
with a girl who fawns
over boys like
timothee chalamet

fuck you, timothee chalamet

i'm there, instead
and we talk so much ...

2 months ago

allpda2003 (United States of America)() published:

i want to love me

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I've been told that I have many 
who lust for me 
as I lust for everyone else

multiple faces that smile my way
but I'm so concentrated on
the way that mine looks
I could never fathom their interest
countless attempts to entice me
while I drag myself down
into pits of despair and pity and hate
so I never hear their pleas

"Just see me,
Don't focus,
Just see me" 

of course I don't believe it 
I don't see...

2 months ago

allpda2003 (United States of America)() published:

dreaming

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I had a dream about you

I don't remember how it felt
but I know how much it hurt
when I woke up
to find 
that everything I dream of
will never appear
in my lonely reality

maybe one day
maybe even with you
the planes of my 
romantic subconscious
will become more than just
a false product of my 
heartbreaking imagination

I forgot the dream
and maybe that was for the best 

2 months ago

allpda2003 (United States of America)() liked It's Love- But It's Not Mine by Ryndi_g (United States of America)()

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2 months ago

allpda2003 (United States of America)() published:

butterfly girl

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I want to sit in the front seat of her car
I want to feel the world spin when she turns
I want to see her dark coffee eyes flicker
when the lights are green

I want to hold her hand
when the lights are yellow
I want to kiss her lips
when the lights are red
I want to hold her face in my palms
and smile when the lights go out

I want to feel a little closer ...

2 months ago

allpda2003 (United States of America)() published:

this is confusing

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i'm sorry
that I
am not that much
i'm sorry 
I'm so awkward
around you
I want to be
like the ones who 
make you smile
the most
and I fail
a lot of the time

yet
you rest your head
on my arm
you 
laugh at my stupid jokes
you 
smile at me
you even
smile back
you 
don't move away

this is new
my heart
is pretty torn 
at this point
I want to
tell you everything

but ...

3 months ago

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