leximay50

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leximay50 (United States) published:

pain avoidance

PROMPT: Black Literature Matters

“I imagine one of the reasons people cling to their hates so stubbornly is because they sense, once hate is gone, they will be forced to deal with pain.” -- James Baldwin, The Fire Next Time

I suppose I chose to reflect on this excerpt because although it is relevant to the moment we are in present-day, it also speaks of something common throughout humanity: pain avoidance. Humans tend to be willing to do drastic and/or extreme things to avoid...

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6 months ago

leximay50 (United States) published:

schedules

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schedules can be so tiring
everybody desires time from me

I try my best 
but I am human,
I do need rest

I am so bad at saying no
I always feel a little too slow

I guess
I will keep trying
and pray for rest

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How can I help?

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I know you are hurting,
How can I help?

I know you are angry,
Can we find a way to positively use that?

I know I can never understand,
Please help me learn.

I know we need change,
Let's make a change with love instead of hate, and conversations instead of yelling.

I know you are tired of waiting,
Have no doubt, your time is now.

Just don't forget, 
Love and equality are what it's all about.

 

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6 months ago

leximay50 (United States) published:

my thoughts 6/3/2020

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What is right and what is wrong anymore? I certainly don't know. I think I do, and then something comes along that promptly reminds me I don't. It's overwhelming and quite frankly, depressing. I just want to go hide until the angry people on Twitter stop yelling their opinions at me with their condescending, furious tones, and all capital letter messages. I need someone to talk it over with me. Someone who can also see the bunches of points of...

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6 months ago

leximay50 (United States) published:

the end of land

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The beach in Englewood Florida is beautiful. The waves crash on to grainy sand covered in tiny white seashells. It usually gets fairly busy as the day warms, but at four-thirty in the morning, you are virtually alone. It's not yet light out, but you can still hear the water and feel the seashells underneath your toes. It is an entirely unique sensory experience to be on the beach early in the morning. Well, on this particular morning I decided...

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a thank you note

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I watched the SpaceX and NASA launch of Dragon yesterday. The technology is astounding...I can't believe that rocket can return to Earth and be landed on a boat! They have a camera attached to Dragon currently, so you can see Earth from space. It's beautiful. I watched it travel over the Middle East, the Sahara, Russia, and now China. Here's what stands out though. From space, you don't see the riots going on in the United States, you don't see...

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6 months ago

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a rambling self-examination you didn't sign up for

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I feel like I am always thinking of what could go wrong. I know that sounds inherently negative, but I'm not a negative person; at least I don't think I am. More than anything, I think it's due to a sense of paranoia, a sense of duty, and a strong desire to be prepared for my future. The paranoia is obvious, I always have a voice in the back of my head reminding me that things can turn from perfectly...

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6 months ago

leximay50 (United States) published:

make it right

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where did we go
oh so wrong
now it's cool to be weak
and weak to be strong

when we can only see
in black and white
and these deaths
now lead us to riot and fight

they burn the flag
where are the patriots?
it's up to the people
nobody will be saving us

when did a few cops
make us believe
that their bad works
represent the whole law enforcement community?

please, in the name of equality
stop...

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6 months ago

leximay50 (United States) published:

Because I Said So

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I sometimes wonder when a person begins to believe that "because I said so" is a legitimate reason for some other person to listen to them. When does a person become so self-righteous and inflated that they think other people should immediately listen to what they are saying because THEY are the ones saying it? I especially wonder about this with parents. Do they really want to raise a child that listens to people just because they are told to?...

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6 months ago

leximay50 (United States) published:

so tired

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so tired
it's my fault
the night was the seller
I was the buyer
so tired
how can I 
get through the day
I will try my best
yes I will be a trier
so tired
sleep calls my name
I tell her maybe later
I am such a liar
so tired
why do I do this to myself
if my body was my boss
I would be fired
so tired
I will keep myself together
I will be okay ...

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