ghostyboi

United States

system of 14
he/it
a vaguely masculine blob of thought floating around in space
pfp made by me
joined september 2019

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Message from Writer

"It's alright, it's okay. You're not a monster just human and you made a few mistakes,"
-It's Alright by Mother Mother

"One page of the bible isn't worth a life,"
-The Village by Wrabel

"A hundred bad days makes a hundred good stories and a hundred good stories makes me interesting at parties,"
-100 Bad Days by AJR

"I thought you had me in prison this whole time, but I'm the one holding the key."
-Intro III by NF

"But there's a moment when you realize parents aren't superheroes or villains. They're painfully, unforgivably human. The question is can you forgive them for being human anyway?"
-Dry by Neal Shusterman

"If I wait 'til my tomorrow comes is the waiting all I've ever done?"
-Ben Platt

7

ghostyboi (United States) published:

how does it feel

FREE WRITING


how does it feel to just
effortlessly live

how does it feel to just
take a breath
without the weight of the future
catching it in your throat

how does it feel to just
go to sleep
without fighting a battle
that no one else can see

how does it feel to just
be fine
no lies, no mask
just okay

how does it feel
i need to know
so maybe i can feel your comfort
and just exist again
Seeking Peer Reviews

about 7 hours ago

ghostyboi (United States) liked white privilege by Paisley Blue (United States)

2 days ago

4

ghostyboi (United States) published:

Connor's Eulogy

FREE WRITING


    Connor was with me since the beginning. He was a calm voice among the uncertainty of life. I used to hate him because I thought he made me crazy, but now I realize that I love him more than anything. I love him for doing his best to help me cope, no matter how unhealthy. I love him for never once giving up on me. I love him for being the one true friend I had, even when I had...
Seeking Peer Reviews

3 days ago

2

ghostyboi (United States) published:

Resentment within a loss

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there's always this feeling of resentment
like i'm not where i'm supposed to be
like i was the one who killed Connor
instead of just being here to pick up his pieces

there's always this feeling of loathing
no matter how much i try to help
because i was the one Connor turned into
i was the one who put him to sleep with no chance of waking up

i don't blame any of them
in fact i blame myself...
Seeking Peer Reviews

4 days ago

11

ghostyboi (United States) published:

Rock bottom is a comfort

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there's a certain comfort of being at your lowest
the embrace of not caring
is warmer than anything else
the ability to just stop fighting back
is relieving beyond comparison

getting better takes fighting every moment
and the exhaustion is crippling
but at rock bottom i don't have to fight
i just have to lay there
and allow the waters to suffocate me

i'm clawing my way out of the hole
but sometimes i wish i never left
because rock...
Seeking Peer Reviews

4 days ago

17

ghostyboi (United States) published:

things i needed to hear so will share with you

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you're not a failure for being yourself.
you don't owe to world perfection.
you can't be responsible for other people all the time.
you're just a kid.
you deserve peace and love just like anyone else.
you're real.
you can be whoever you need to be.
you are loved.
Seeking Peer Reviews

6 days ago

3

ghostyboi (United States) published:

As Fate Demands | Chapter 1

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    Jaxon rubbed his face with his hands. “I told you. I don’t know how I got there,” he said, annoyed at having to repeat the same thing to every officer and their mother.
    The newest officer (or was it a detective?) assigned to crack Jaxon looked him up and down doubtfully. “Let me get this straight. You just woke upat the scene of a murder, the murder weapon in your hand, and the victim’s DNA all over...
Seeking Peer Reviews

7 days ago

3

ghostyboi (United States) published:

As Fate Demands | Prologue

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    Jaxon Reynold woke up unable to move and surrounded by blood. He didn’t think it was his; he felt no pain. But then whose was it? He couldn’t quite remember what had happened, only that he was having fun with his friend one moment, and was laying here the next. Perhaps he could figure it out if only he could get up.
    
    Drew Collands was a fine fellow, if a little mysterious. He went to church on...
Seeking Peer Reviews

8 days ago

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1

ghostyboi (United States) published:

hypocrite riv

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you had everything you ever wanted
she was accepting and kind
she fucking loved you
and you ghosted her
because you couldn't deal with the fact
that you couldn't love her back
instead of telling her
instead of using your fucking words
you ghosted her

you told her you needed to communicate everything
and then when she poured her heart out to you
you ghosted her
because you were afraid of
hurting her feelings
like we're still ten years old
...
Seeking Peer Reviews

9 days ago

ghostyboi (United States) liked irrational fears by Anne Blackwood (summer camp hiatus) (United States)

9 days ago