MarSan

Mexico

They are leaning out for love and they wil lean that way forever.

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I decided to enjoy my last few months here :)
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They/Them

5

MarSan (Mexico) published:

Insomnia Tales.

FREE WRITING

I haven’t slept before 5 am for the past three months. Every night I say it will be the last and every day I wake up after 3 pm. Sometimes I think it can’t be fixed anymore. It’s a loop, I’ll just come back again. I’ve tried, I’ve tried time and time again. And suddenly it’s too late. Suddenly I’m tucked into bed and all I can think of is how I can’t fall asleep, how I have so much...

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29 days ago

2

MarSan (Mexico) published:

Predisposition for Pain.

PROMPT: Poetry and Spoken Word Competition: 2021

goddamn, do I know the name of love.
and have I basked in the grip of grief.
I’ve dined in between death and horror,
made them both ache for relief.

I’ve adored, praised, begged on my knees.
Sizzled hot and boiled cold.
Cracked and poured remains of truth,
over girls who bared their teeth.

Twist me into your confessional, hard-hearted,
tonight I’m dark wood, incense, your first sin.
I’ll bow my head. I’ll kiss your temples.
Tonight I’m comfort, mercy,...

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about 2 months ago

MarSan (Mexico) published:

The one in which failure is okay.

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As my time drips over my body, a new night is born. So terribly close to the past, so desperate near the future. I am not bad in these moments. I am not bad with my chest bare. I take her words, offered in self-defense. I cradle them, for she’s my mirror. Failure is okay. It sits foreign in my thoughts. She’s never seen my face, yet I feel safe in her picture. I feel safe when I can’t...

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about 2 months ago

MarSan (Mexico) started following Tho Nguyen (United States)

2 months ago

8

MarSan (Mexico) published:

about fantasy, heartache and the one i still write for.

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she loves me with the tenderness one has for a particularly tragic attempt,
she leaves me with the certainty that i will break without her
she leans down to kiss me and all i can taste is
“you’re my tortured mind, my bleeding wound, mine to keep”
and i yield, i play the part, i’m hers to break
hers to amend

she does not know that i am all bone and steel
that my tragedy is locked tight inside a...

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2 months ago

2

MarSan (Mexico) published:

Predisposition for Pain.

PROMPT: Poetry and Spoken Word Competition: 2021

There’s no sorrowful night like the one spent on your knees, 
as the one in which you’re forgetting your name
in which you're stitching a new one

no night as deep-buried as the one in which you cry your saint’s names
over and over
even if you suspect they forgot you long ago
gentle hands and whispers caress your face by day
and you weep by night
lungs become ocean
hope hardens into blade 

there’s no place that comforts a face without...

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2 months ago

3

MarSan (Mexico) published:

about fantasy, heartache and the one i still write for.

FREE WRITING

she loves me with the tenderness one has for a particularly tragic attempt,
she leaves me with the certainty that i will break without her
she leans down to kiss me and all i can taste is
“you’re my tortured mind, my bleeding wound, mine to keep”
and i yield, i play the part, i’m hers to break
hers to amend

she does not know that i am all bone and steel
that my tragedy is locked tight inside a...

Seeking Peer Reviews

2 months ago

2

MarSan (Mexico) published:

letting go.

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does your pain curl or purr?
is it comfortable now?
you know it is, you know joy never lasts quite enough.
that it demands balance, and god, you’re tired.
joy demands effort. joy demands pink vulnerability.
sorrow is in your morning coffee, it kisses you back home.
sorrow says “i’m here” and means it.
You’ve never known bliss that makes promises like that.
of course it’s ironic, of fucking course it is.
that’s the whole point.
rock bottom doesn’t...

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3 months ago

MarSan (Mexico) reviewed:

A Brick Foundation

PROMPT: Dream Big

I apologize thoroughly for any awkward sentences, I am very much sleep-deprived. However!!! I love the way you construct your setting, and especially the tone. It's really present??? I can hear your voice, is what I think I'm trying to...

3 months ago

1

MarSan (Mexico) published:

A Cheeky 4. Helena Herpentaria

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If there’s one thing she knows about herself, is that she’s nosy. People never seem to tire of informing her. “Get your own cup of coffee to stick your nose into,” the girls at the office spit, crushing morning into a fine grain. “Don’t talk to me about something I haven’t told you about” the ones at the cabaret are less aggressive, more dangerous. They’ve never liked her much around here. Nine Abadón doesn’t wish to be known, less alone ...

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3 months ago