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becbutler

Australia

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becbutler (Australia) published:

when do become someone

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I do not know when I became nothing 
when I became a teenage statistic 
when i became a number 
when i became no one 

8 months ago

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becbutler (Australia) published:

honey and vinegar

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when I'm in a room with you it feels like I'm floating 
and nothing can bring me down
no matter what I'm with you and that means I'm safe
the monsters that lie underneath my bed cannot find me 
the dark figure in my room can no longer hurt me 

your words are now vinegar, fast and bitter 
they still drip effortlessly of your tongue 
swallowing me in a blue haze of hurt and pain 
your words are like honey,...

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8 months ago

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becbutler (Australia) published:

everything and nothing are just the same

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sleeping is hard 
staying awake is hard 

school is getting worse 
I can't breathe at the moment 
My life feels like a constant panic attack 
A constant weight on my chest that I can't shake 

A feeling of constant fear and discomfort 
a constant panic attack 

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8 months ago

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becbutler (Australia) published:

I am no longer myself

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I am no longer myself
I'm not driving, just watching 
I'm stuck in my head
I'm in a cage and looking out 

My head is spinning 
Sleep is hard 
I have eight hours this week 
I've started to count the hours 
The hours are getting shorter every week
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18
13


I'm not me anymore 
I don't feel like me 
I dont't act like me 
I don't know what 'me' is anymore 

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11 months ago

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becbutler (Australia) published:

who knows

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being at school is painful and tiring. My body hurts and not functioning. 
I can be in a room full of people but I still feel so alone waking up to go to school is difficult, I don't move around till 7.40 and by that time I've already been awake for 3 hours. I don't have the motivation to do anything at the moment, school, seeing friends, seeing family is just so hard. I'm failing most of my classes and I can't help...

11 months ago

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becbutler (Australia) published:

Bleh

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I'm not sleeping anymore, I'm on medication but it doesn't work 
Waking up is hard, living is getting difficult. 
I don't have any motivation to do anything

Everything is getting to much and I need it all to stop 

about 1 year ago

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becbutler (Australia) published:

a man

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this man was a man with nothing but love in his heart
a man who loved with his whole body 
who's hugs felt like heaven 
who's words fell smooth and soft 

this  man was a man who knew how to break someone
a man who lied with his whole heart 
whos hugs became threats 
who's words that did nothing but damage 

this man was a man who lost it all 
a man who lived a life to short 
who's body...

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about 1 year ago

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becbutler (Australia) published:

Falling isn't an option

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it feels like I'm falling
falling for someone who won't fall for me 
but falling isn't a choice 

Falling feels like it'll last forever 
it feels like I should let go 
but this forever is not healthy whatsoever

This feeling isn't new
this feeling won't be there forever 
but i dont want this to go 


 

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about 1 year ago

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