Inhaling smoke like it's a saviour
Exhaling it like, I'm letting go of all that destroying me.

Inhale.... Exhale...
Breathing in and out...
In goes the sin and out goes the misery.

Succumbing to the idea of numbness every once in awhile is so liberating.
Release.
It's a release.
Is it wrong?
Of course it is.
Is it me? 
Am I now this stereotype for finally letting myself be weak?

Doesn't matter now does it?
While the judgements from your...

Free me from this.
Save me from this.
Please hide me from the destruction and pain that is trying to capture me.

Protect me under a layer of blankets made of stability, serenity, and peace.
I'm begging.
I don't know who I am begging to, I am just a terrified girl who's on her knees and pleading for refuge from this disease.
If there's a God, let him save me now. 

Take me away and free me from everyone who...

Inked pages scream because they are nailed to the sky. 16 years of hugs and love hop around giddily inside a 3 year old dog. Feathers are etched onto mothers, fathers, grandmothers, and children. Journals swim on blue glassy eye shores. The moon is merely a shell where prayers are painted. If you listen closely, books whisper secrets but you won't read those confessions within the pages.

This is all nonsense yes, but it makes sense to me. 
Let me...

When reality broke down,
my hope returned, like you'd expect it to,
then drank my pain, and you became an illusion too...

Breaking down...
We've come too far to let this through,
But you don't see how much I want us to.

Before this drink I was alright,
This night was nothing that came to mind,
And wishing you were sober tonight,
but I don't want you gone..

but I want your lips pressed to mine,
and that's not just...