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jengelman

Australia

im slowly learning how to distance myself from you
but ill still ask where i went wrong

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https://clairestaasengelman.blogspot.com/

this is my major work

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jengelman (Australia) published:

this is not an instruction manual

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notifications on my phone like an evacuation alert,
i feel pity in not answering the messages,
and i blame myself for the way you no longer dance
like you used to.
but when you invited me into your life,
like a tkts ticket,
i cannot help to think i changed the story.
i somehow made the silhouette darker. 

i tell you i am always here for you,
and in some ways i am.
but you will never come. 
but i still hear your tears, ...

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jengelman (Australia) published:

this is not an instruction manual

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notifications on my phone like an evacuation alert,
i feel pity in not answering the messages,
and i blame myself for the way you no longer dance
like you used to.
but when you invited me into your life,
like a tkts ticket,
i cannot help to think i changed the story.
i somehow made the silhouette darker. 

i tell you i am always here for you,
and in some ways i am.
but you will never come. 
but i still hear your tears, ...

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jengelman (Australia) liked Mathematic tock by generationwhy (Afghanistan)

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first grade nightmare

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welcome to my first grade story,
it isn't very interesting right now,
 but the characters are changing,
and im manipulating the plot,
so that i will finally have 
a story worth writing about. 


 

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jengelman (Australia) published:

trying to erase my middle class past to attempt to fit in with the north-shore snobs #contestfor69

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about six months ago, 
i was with the ex-lovers, and the cousin. 
sitting outside the museum of contemporary art. 
he whispers,
i smuggled weed across the border.
together, 
we run against dusk,
hiding underneath the tree,
somewhere interesting in North-Sydney.

he then rolls a blunt,  
passes it to my friends.
we become numb to its distinctive taste.
i feel reckless ,
i change into another shirt,
one   that my mother would not like. 
i smile. 
its rare i feel like an...

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jengelman (Australia) liked stitches #contestfor69 by Onion3102 (Australia)

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jengelman (Australia) published:

five years one week old child

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my poetry did the one thing it was never supposed to do,
it corrupted you. and i try i try 
to tell you my works are not about you
its only a coping-mechanism towards the body that is not mine.
and i am trying to hide. 
she asks me simple questions like 
why can't we still be friends?
she tells me how she is moving on,
i know she means well, 
its just not enough.
she cannot erase the...

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jengelman (Australia) published:

five years one week old child

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my poetry did the one thing it was never supposed to do,
it corrupted you. and i try i try 
to tell you my works are not about you
its only a coping-mechanism towards the body that is not mine.
and i am trying to hide. 
she asks me simple questions like 
why can't we still be friends?
she tells me how she is moving on,
i know she means well, 
its just not enough.
she cannot erase the...

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jengelman (Australia) liked today by Isla-Grace Davies (United Kingdom)

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jengelman (Australia) published:

these are the words i will never tell you #firstraycontest

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once my parents let me travel alone in new york city.
at 15, i rode on one of those rental bikes,
travelling north of midtown.
i don't remember the date - 
somewhere near christmas eve.
i sat down at the steps of the public library.
it was closed. 
that morning i wrote a poem
about a homeless man playing chess by himself.

before that, i was in japan.
i did not want to be there,
because no one ever spoke to...

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