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Published Work

Monostitch

1 line.

Apologies rejected, don't give a damn, fake people don't deserve them anyway.  

Too Nice

I'm too nice to you, 
you don't deserve that, 
but, I mean I pity you, 
so that's that. 

You seriously think it's a secret?
Well all your thoughts are wrong.
You think your smart and you got it, 
none of it is working, you failed, from a time so long. 

You think that's it you won?
In reality your done.
Give up, all thoughts about you, 
long ago, have been gone.

So let me tell you, if anything at all happens, 
just know to thank me.
Anything related to an "us", 
is up to me. 

Get away, get lost.
It's not everyday someone looks at you.
So get away, pitiful lost cause. 

 

Clear

Let's make something crystal clear, 
people's actions (no matter who) we don't control, my dear,  
If it seems like it then maybe, just maybe someone's sadness they fear.
After all, when some people love, 'bout it they're sincere.
And that love, influences their actions,
they think once, twice, and thrice regardless of the outcomes, and the satisfactions.  
They don't hate you, they just care about a person, more than they do about you. 
It hurts yes I know, but so what? what can be done? 
Don't be a fool, don't make of yourself a foe.
It's ok to love, it's ok to feel, 
emotion we can't either control, so at least about it be real.
Why make yourself so wretched, so degrading? 
It makes you look bad, your importance is fading. 
I don't either hate you, 
so why are you forcing me to? 
At least now I hope things are clear, 
this year is about to end, 
I really hope ...

It's Time.

Here comes the time, I have to say goodbye. 
Now the reality hit me, you're actually leaving, 
and I can't do anything about it. 
So forgive me for all that I've done, I sincerely hope you don't 
hate me and forget me, once you find ones who are better. 
Just know I love you, I hope the light you lit in me,
doesn't fade after you :(  

A Choice of Yours.

Doesn't shock me, how much people assume, 
how when they're desperate (by choice forsaken), 
all lies they crave, and consume. 
They stab you in the back, 
then ask you why you're bleeding?
They open up your wound, 
then ask, why aren't you healing?

Have you no shame?
"what's gotten into you?"
Why others do you (constantly) blame?
then wonder why they won't "forgive",
and instead they give up on you? 

Funny how at times, they think
they're more important than they actually are, 
seek attention in every way,
and never care who they scar. 
It isn't our fault, you left a bad impression, 
nor is it my fault, you keep leaving (by choice), it's your decision

I say it again, I have tried, and tried, and tried
you never gave a damn, instead innocently, fake tears you cried.
Many people poorly, fooled, some others with anger fueled. 
Won't blame 'em, they have been...

Wrong Choice.

There once was, a really cute girl.
She had the sweetest softest and nicest heart, 
and everyone loved her from the start. 
Then one day, she decided to be "tough,"
she thought it'd be cute and, at the same time rough. 
Little did she know, 
it was a reason to leave her for the better.
She kept denying and saying about everything "no," 
but too bad, she was now left alone, 
and while she was crying and mourning,
the other in happiness did moan.
So tell me who's fault it is, 
She still didn't get it.
She no longer is the best.
She's no longer is the happiness in *** chest. 
No other choice is left, 
so why over it stress.
Just in peace she should accept it, 
and simply just rest. 

Reasons (writing)

  • For what reason do you write? (likes and followers? just a hobby? a free time thing? express your feelings?)
Personally I write to express feelings and emotions, my sadness my anger, my happiness, my emptiness...etc. I express much more through my writing than my talking. I pour my heart in it all, it can even relieve stress sometimes. Likes are bonus, the fact that not only do I like it but others too and can even relate to it sometimes pleases me. what about you? 
  • what motivates you to write? (specific people? events maybe? memories?)
People, events and incidents, memories and experiences, losses...you name it. As long as it has an effect on me in some way, it has a chance of being written about, even after a time passes. Sometimes I just can't write about something that just happens, specially if it has a big impact on me. It's like... um it needs time to sink in I guess. 
    ...

My Dude

Now you my dear friend, 
my broken soul who other than you will mend. 
There for me when I need you, 
there for me when I hurt you, 
perfection isn't enough to describe you, 
to stay in anyway, can I bribe you?

To do anything, go anywhere, 
We know I can't force you. 
I already did what I can, 
I already begged you. 
But if that is what you need, 
then so be it. 
But know if you're on the moon, 
I'll still try to chase you to it. 

I love you my dude, 
more than all the junk food. 
You should know that means a lot,
jk jk, but seriously,
I'll kick your *** if you forget about me dude. 
 

Today, Tomorrow

So much love for you, 
you have no clue. 
Everything without you, 
is meaningless and blue. 
Thank you so much, 
the things for me you do. 
endless love, my dream coming true.

Today a hug and a kiss, 
tomorrow, even better than this. 

No one like you I ever miss, 
in my life you're the eternal bliss. 

Don't ever think I'll let you go, 
I'm yours and you're mine, we already know. 

Today, a promise ring, 
today, for me you sing. 
Tomorrow, we'll love with a new thing.

And Forever, 
I'm your proud queen, and you're my king. 


... LOVE YOU ...

One Touch.

One touch, is all it takes,  brush of your skin, stirs and awkns all the butterflies within. 

Monostitch

1 line.

I said I can't feel, but I'm not completely gone, I'm trying to be here for me and you, help me, bring me back. I won't leave you alone If I don't have to. 

A good thing? or A Bad Thing?

..............

I don't feel, it's like my heart's made of steel. 
Is it a good thing? about somethings I can't care. 
Is it a bad thing? I'll do anything, I have no remorse or regret. 
The pain and sadness, anger and madness, I do like to forget, 
but its also no pity, and no care, no needs or despair. 

I know I could be a monster, 
but I can be a sweet angel. 
Just get me at the right times, 
when I'm not feeling it, I'll be rude and harsh, never gentle. 

So tell me is it a good thing? 
or is it a bad thing?
To certain times, my feelings are limited. 
To certain people, feelings can't be delimited. 

................

 

Monostitch

1 line.

I would but I won't, I care but I don't, I call it numbness, but you call it heartlessness.  

No Pause for Breath

Trying.

I know, I know, I see you waiting, 
I see you expecting me, like old times, 
to explode, to lose it, to start acting up, 
but I'm trying, and unlike old times, I'm trying not to give up, 
I lost trust, I lost faith, but I never lost care, 
I gave up, I assumed, I still do, and of everything I'm still aware, 
but I'm trying, and to anyone I won't anymore be crying, 
I'll try to trust you and to trust me
I'll try to make you believe me and in me
I know it seems pointless, I know you'll think it's worthless, 
you're not the only, everyone does too, I'll still try regardless,
I'm trying to fix what I broke, I'm tryina stay woke,
I'm trying to help myself, and I'm trying to be there for us,
I know I never listen, and in some ways I don't show care, 
it's...

....

She said, 
help I need.
She said my soul, 
feelings once again I need to feed.
"We're humans, and we need to feel".
We're supposed to cry, we're not made of steel.

I believe and say: "I am a horrible person though,
that's something, (WE ALL) know." 
She would try and be like: "That's not true, no.
The opposite we actually know.
People are attracted to you, they like you, and I believe in you." 
And she says: "You're the most popular in your class, and as an A student if you 
try, you could pass." 
I repeat to her what I repeat to myself everyday: "It's because I'm mean, and rude, and
hardhearted. It's what they all about me say."

Yup, now I definitely know I need help,
I would've never admitted it before, 
but now it's hopeless, I'm hopeless and I can't even help myself anymore. 
Regardless of who loves me, regardless of who I adore. 
So I'll...

Oh Well

I hate life.
I hate it.
I hate people.
Not all of them.
I hate liars.
Every single one them.
I hate fakes.
There's no hope in them.
I hate me, 
for giving anything any kind of feeling.
 

Confession.

It is a joke?
Am I delusional? 
Is what I go through, 
my depression and what I am told, 
is any of it at all true? 

One day he loves me, and sees me as his star.
Another he hates me, tells me I am nothing to him, 
stays from me so far. 
He's supposed to be my protector, 
the shoulder I can cry on.
Or at least my care taker, 
not the one who tells me I should be gone. 

I ran away, 
"like a dog" he said, 
yet he wanted me back, 
and when I returned, 
I was as good as dead. 
No one knows though, 
I don't dare tell them, 
no will believe, they'll think
I'm just being my self stepping so low. 

Now I'm alone, 
alone with my depression. 
Can't handle seeing people's pity, 
there now it's out, my confession. 
I feel like I'm caged, 
always outraged. 
Yet only myself is to there to blame, 
Only...

A Little Advice

Dear people, dear everyone and even the sweet haters,
you might think you won against someone, 
but is it really a victory if you're simply being ignored? 
Is it not so embarrassing, 
to try to hurt a person so hard, when they don't even see you of any importance?
So this is a little advice, as a wise person said:    
 "when you try to hurt someone or just prove a point to them, make sure they care."  
And here are some questions to ask before you further continue a failing plan...

  • Do they care?
  • Do they even know you exist?
  • What good does it do you?
  • What harm does it do them?
Cool? 

When I...

The need to let those feelings out, 
chocking me, suffocating me, silencing my every shout.
Like a child, I crave affection, 
yet, like a loner, despise attention. 
So every once in a while, 
I cry and  hide my tears, simply break down, 
but every once in a  long while, 
I'm happy, feeling royal, wearing my love crown.
Am I bipolar? or am I just stupid?
Why am I so emotional, why do I have to be muted?
Does anyone (really) understand?
When I need aiding, will they offer their hand? 
I know I'm stubborn, hardheaded, 
I know it's easier to give up on me, 
and I know, somethings should be regretted... 
But if you really know me, 
you know such a thing I will never show, 
feeling it or not, over weakness, I'd rather be hallow. 
Once again, I know I could be a lost cause, 
I break every rule, make my own laws. 
Some are unfair, 
in fact full...

A Few Words.

Tears tears, 
stabbing words, 
betraying spears. 

Ice ice,
stone hearts, 
muffled cries. 

Time time, 
short days, 
one legal crime. 

Attention attention,
listen up, forgiveness
no more redemption.

Hate hate,
none of that, 
and no time to waste.

Care care, 
I do and I don't, 
it's not always fair. 

Joke joke, 
fake person, 
troubles provoke.

Lie lie,
start a fire, 
then go complain and cry.

Take take, 
eyes meet and both we down break. 

Goodbye goodbye, 
before it's too late, 
sepak and don't be shy.  

 

Not Again Please

Again? It's happening again,
As if I'm living it all once again.
I can't this time though,
I can't face it, can't handle it,
all the judging eyes, 
false accusations, and angry lies. 
Eternal, internal pain, 
hidden confusion, and old feelings, 
arising to my soul stain.

I can't choose between one and two, 
I can't leave, not only for me, 
but also for you. 
It hurts me to hurt you, 
but it hurts more that you'd mean
it when you say "I hate you" .

Did you ever know, 
how many times, I tried leaving for good?
And you know what I'm capable of, so you know I would.
Pills, and ropes, and more pills and more ropes.
 
Did you know about the therapy session? 
Do you know about the threat about going to a mental hospital?
Do you know when it started? when I got my writing obsession? 

I guess you don't...
and you won't know 'till you...

On The 20th

Something I craved for so so long, 
regardless of it being really risky and wrong.
The very few months, felt like years
from the longing and need, I shed some tears.

It wasn't only me though, 
*** wanted it just as bad, 
and even though, we said we'll take it slow, 
you gave it to me, and I'm eternally grateful, 
and so freaking glad. 

On the 20th,
you quenched, my extreme thirst.
Gave me what I needed, 
my heart with joy, and hope (for more) was gonna burst. 

So thank you thank you thank you, 
I await more with you. 
Thank you, once again, 
Thank you I wuff you.    




 

Eh Just Some Boredom Product

Happy Happy, 
sad, and sappy..
what do you want?
what do you not want?
let me go, 
it's no good, and its snappy 

Not making decisions for you! 
I swear, nor am I lying to you!
in fact, 
I care about you!
and as far as love goes, 
I love you, 

But it's better this way!
I didn't say that, you did
maybe not right now, not today!
but I swear, you did at some point 
so I'mma let go and leave, 
go celebratre happy yet ?
well yay for you yay :) 

 

The Unknown

Do You Know?

There's a lot that we don't know 
we assume but for sure, anything we don't know 
for the things we crave, we get a no 
we get hurt by our beloved more than we do 
by every other foe 

But for real though, 
what do I know,
who loves me?
who hates me?
who's lying?
who's fake crying?
this might not be the finest time 
but at least even if we dont know,
we confess our faults that are worse than a murder crime

If you're mad, 
I won't know,
before there's a chance,
everyone lets go, 

We blame one another, 
we hurt each other, 
but we never confess
both of us are at fault, 
angels, hates, devils, or lovers,

goodbye, goodbye
see still even that when It's time,
you won't know. 
 
 

Uh Happy?

Ah, I did it because they asked me to, 
don't worry though, 
they said anymore, I dont have to.
Now finally I can stop, 
I'll ignore what hurts me,
let happiness be on top.   
Like always, I see whats going on, 
and like always, 
I'm the last to ever move on. 
But it is okay, I'll be fine, 
the great ones around me, 
the ones who love me, 
will always give me a reason to shine. 
I'm not hating anymore, 
maybe hurting, but I can do it, 
even if I have to crawl on slippery floor. 
The love and care between us, 
is never gonna be gone. 
Maybe we won't play, not have fun, 
but we are us, and we are one. 
To an ex, I once loved you, 
now I don't hate you.
To a friend, I have hurt you, 
but isn't that what you know me for?
To my one, I LOVE you, 
We promised a future,...

Once Again, Just Me.

Whatever you might think, 
Whatever you might see, 
There's always good, but also evil within me.
Even if I change, I won't disappear, 
If for a while I'm gone, I'll still re-appear.

Things I dont regret, that you got right.
For you and even with you, I might as well fight. 
Dumb and stupid, yet not blind, 
won't miss a beat, and if I do later on I'll find. 

I don't want to hate, and I'm always too late.
I'm working on it all, but promises I no longer make. 
I thought you knew me well, I thought none of this I would have to tell, 
but if I dont, then you might fall, like that time for lies you fell. 

If anything ever happened, please I beg you don't blame it on fate, 
It's not a good excuse, still you might think it's great. 
I swear to you I have tried, once, twice, and thrice I've tried,
But things...

Can't Anymore

I can say the things,  
the things that you have done.  
The things that I,  
was never supposed to know about. 
You might think that I didn't know,  
might think it's all gone.  
Dear you are wrong,  
but I have no heart left to argue with you and shout. 

So please just stop,  
you might be named the "good one". 
This ridiculous pretense though,  
might be the reason to away run.  

I can't do it anymore,  
so whatever it is you have for me in store,  
bring it on already,  
I swear I can't anymore,  
so get it over with, just like you wish,  
I'll turn and leave from the nearest widest door. 

Fight me, yell at me,  
Hate me, don't even look at me,  
too low for you,  
and you're too good for me, 
You'll leave eventually, both of you 
Just say the goodbyes first,  
After all, piece of you,  
you gave me.  

25 Words

Hopelessly Hopeful.

Gone and forced back, lost and then found, hurt, in danger then by the best rescued, sadly later on broken by them, there's still hope.   

Poetry and Spoken Word Competition

Spoken Words

"Her heart made of stone"
"She deserves to be alone"
"She has no morals no manners,
don't question, it's well known"

People who are you to judge?
she tried and tried, 
she apologized and cried. 
everything she has she offered, 
and your hearts never budge! 

Just please give her the time, 
grant her some space.
all she ever wanted, 
is your attention, and your approval, 
she seeks comfort in any embrace.

"She looks dead pale skin, 
her eyes blood red", 
but she's empty, she's in pain
crying for help, she's in vain 
"she's lying, she's pretending,
leave her we said, fake tears those are shed" 

People how are you so harsh?
you don't know wha's in her heart. 
For once just let her be!
For just once show some mercy! 
How could you value a human so little?
hate in you people ripples
while in misery she cripples, 

Her heart and her life in general you broke!
Is this to...

What You Asked For

"She's changed" 
"she's not the same" 
I wonder why though 
I wonder who is to blame.

Everything I have I've given you 
everything in my power I tried for you
then you just leave, ungrateful 
nothing ever enough for you, never thankful
 
Only see the bad in me 
blind to the pain and patience 
everything bad, blame on me 
tell me I've changed
but look at yourself, it's your fault, cant you see? 

You just lie, never the bad guy  
about everything I do you complain and cry
and pretend to be so innocent,
and when they're there, a sweet angel you classify 

manipulative liar 
just thinking about your own good,
your own desire.
and then you dare say I've changed?
just find another way to conspire. 

Actually wait. No need. 
I'm done with you, 
and all your greed.
I'm not waiting, I dont care anymore.
no need to fake, we're over, 
its what you asked and waited for. 

Them All

Tired of them all
tired of them pretending,
their lying, and their denying 
their true feelings always hiding.

Some say they care,
up and down they swear.
promising to never hurt you
never lie to you,
just please go say that elsewhere.

To you over there , just because he chose to ignore, 
and once again I say chose to ignore, 
doesn't mean he's asking for more. 
if you have something to say, 
then be straight up. we don't have time to play.

And oh how dare she, 
think just simply I'll forget, 
or even funnier, 
think that I would regret.
don't you say you know me well?
we'll start a never-ending war, can't you tell?

Now all of you together,
what makes any of you better than one another?
why do you lie?  
why things do you fake?
then you say its a joke, no no its a mistake
as if I believe you, 
please, I dont want to hate you
...

Monostitch

1 line.

Continuously ending,is happiness, heroically appearing in hopelessness and madness.    

Weak

I said I can't breathe, 
they said just wait a little longer 

I said I can't handle it,
they said don't be a baby

so I hid and I lied, 
in darkness cried.. 
they said grow up,
start acting like a lady

I said I'm weak, 
they ordered me not to speak 

everything I have, I give
it's not enough, they won't forgive 

I screamed I'm weak,
my days are getting bleak
I tried to end my life, 
but even that I couldn't do, 
and the hate inside me strong it grew 

I stopped talking, I stopped asking
they said stop acting, we know you're pretending 

they pushed me and I pushed me further 
they hated me and I hated me harder 
I'm weak..
they broke me..
I'm weak..
there's no place for me..  
 
 

My Sisters

My beginning and my end 
to you all my apologies I send 
I'll beg
I swear I'll fall on my knees
I'll cry
what do I do so you I please 

My friends, my other half 
my sisters, and more you are
you know you mean the world to me?
you know in my darkness you're a loving star?

how much have I hurt you 
why are you still with me?
don't get me wrong, I'm grateful 
but why not leave and be happy without me
I know with me you're in pain
less happiness and more vain 
don'y you see the looks you get when you're with me?
the looks of hate, disgust, and disdain

my best friend(s) I love you
in my life I need you 
but as long as we're together I'll hurt you 
even though I won't mean to

somethings I won't say 
maybe ashamed of em
or just hidden secrets they should stay
but you...

I'll Just Watch

we laughed, we smiled 
promises we made
looks like these though 
are starting to fade

you said you would be
my always and forever
you promised me you'd mine 
regardless of all the tough pressure 

my eyes wouldn't open 
and yet refuse to sleep
every second of everyday 
the pain and longing gets more deep

after all that we had 
after all that we went through
you tell me you wanna be friends?
yet you say I still wanna marry you..?
not did you only break my heart
not only did I forget to breath 
I pushed everyone and you away 
even though it killed me underneath 

take a guess on what I'm thinking
I'll never admit it 
but I think you're back to her 
you know now I hate myself 
she was your first
and your smiles with her
all my thoughts and suspicions assure  

it hurts even more 
thinking I wasn't enough 
that you still need her
and...

bored? read this :) #3

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  • Q: What does a boyfriend and mascara have in common? A: They both run at the first sign of emotion. 
  • It was so hot today, I almost called...

your opinions and requests :)

Hello everyone ! 
so I decided to ask y'all to give me suggestions on what you'd like me to write next. Whatever it is that you would like to read, a poem/song, a story, jokes, or just some other type pf creative writing.
In the comments below tell me what you think I should write, and about what.
and we'll see how it goes. :)  

 

Monster Flash Fiction Competition 2018

Monster Not Seen.

    In broad light, and in the darkest night, surrounded by family and friends, it appears everywhere all the time, and never ends. Follows her everywhere, makes her cry, no one knows no one understands. She can't even against it try to stand. She can't see it, she can't touch it, in some ways she started to love it. In her bed, before she sleeps, breaks her, scares her, in her heart rooted deep. It appears in all forms, all shapes, and all sizes, once too big, once too small, and once you can't spot it at all. Closes every door she opens, re-starts every pain she smothers. Her biggest enemy, her worst friend,  even when she dies, it refuses to end. Every rule of mercy it bends, every happiness away it sends. Today, it decided to take over her and rule, it decided to be in control, made her go stand at the edge of the pool, with the beautiful...

Friendship Tweet

Friendship to me

    True friendship is accepting your friends the way they are, and not judging them for it, but at the same time helping them to become better and be the people they deserve to be. It is standing by them at all times, happy and sad, hardships and ease. It is needing them at all times, and not only agreeing with them but understanding them, and not only understanding them, but truthfully knowing them. Friendship is being loving, supportive , encouraging, and loyal. And like some wise person said, true friends recognize and know your weakness, but remind you of your strengths. Also, true friends don't spy, friendship is about privacy too, friendship is a place where you can keep your secrets safe from everyone, where you can reveal your weaknesses and not be ashamed about it.  

 

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  • A wife goes to consult a psychiatrist about her husband: “My husband is acting so weird. He drinks his morning coffee and then he goes and eats the mug! He only leaves the handle!”
     Psychiatrist: “Yes, that is weird. The handle is the best part.“
  • Oh darling, since you’ve started dieting, you’ve become such a passionate kisser…
    What do you mean, passionate? I’m looking for food remains!
  • Police: “Open the door!” 
    Man: “I don’t want any balls!” 
    Police: “What? We don’t have any balls!”
    Man: “I know.”
  • A wife complains to her...

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  • 1f you c4n r34d 7h15, you r34lly n33d 2 g37 l41d.
  • ou’re a 10, on the pH scale… Cuz you’re basic.
  • I still miss my ex – but guess what? My aim is getting better.
  • Whenever I have a problem, I just sing, then I realize my voice is worse than my problem.
  • An apple a day keeps the doctor away, but if the doctor is cute forget the fruit.
  • Silence is the most powerful scream.

those made me smile, I hope they make you too ! 

Love in 13 Words

love in 13 words ♥️♥️♥️

Scary trust
honesty
mixed feeling
confusion 
cute (maybe destructive) jealousy 
unconditional love 
acceptance 

what she is told.

what she was told: 

You can't trust anyone. 
No one, not a single person, loves you for YOU.
They all want something. 
If not money, something else. And you know what I mean.
They all want to help themselves. 
Everyone around you. 
No one but your family, can keep you safe and sound, 
One stick is easy to break, a bunch is unbreakable. 
"I love you", is never true. At least not for who you are.
If you were broke and poor, you will have no "friends", no "lovers". 
They will humiliate you. 
They will do all they can to break you.
After all, without your family you are pretty much nothing. Therefore worthless.
I mean "you are one hard headed person, you wanna follow your own rules. 
You never wanna listen or learn. Only open to what you think is right, and not what actually is". 

 
 
 

what do you want

never losing, and never winning 
always safe, but always in danger
heart aching, head spinning 
relatives as good as any stranger

everyone knows, but no one understands 
loving me once, and hating me twice
by my side, against me they stand 
hearts of stone, their words shards of ice

calling me a sensitive fool
everything in my life they want to rule
weak as my tears spill, laugh at me and call me cruel

confusing, it will never make sense 
yesterday a monster, today a sweet angel
hating me with a spiteful loving immense 

do I need permission to die?
can I in peace for once cry?
please leave me alone, without asking what and why

furious and outraged if I lie
yet every truth I say you hate and deny

what excatly
do you want of me?
everything I gave, 
I'm drained,
have mercy on me
I'm fading, nothing's left
what do you want of me

 

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