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Just a thought...

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~I like to do at least one thing that scares me every day

~She/Her

~The only straight I am is straight up weird

~I don't write as well as everyone else on here, but I try.

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I only publish first drafts...good luck.

Sorry if I write like I'm twelve...I'm not.

Good luck reading my thoughts

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questions i'm not ready to have answered yet

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1. Why did you abandon me when you sad you wouldn't?
All I feel is empty, 
Angry, 
Deceived,
Lonely, 
Hurt. 
 
2. Do you actually miss me?
Or are we back to where I was before?
With her and her lies, 
Her grip on my feelings, 
My heart, 
My life.

3. Where were you when I needed you?
You said you’d always be there, 
But you weren’t. 
I was and still am so lost.
The tears sting so much but...

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i have so many questions and i don't know where to start

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Why do you read things but not respond to them?
Maybe you’re busy, 
Or I’m taking it out of proportion, 
But it hurts when you don’t talk back.

Why did you leave me alone with my feelings and emotions?
I don’t know how to take care of my emotional health, 
You always knew how to bring me back, 
They keep building and getting worse but I can’t fix it.

Why do I miss you even though you clearly don’t miss...

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true love

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True love is one of the easiest things to find but one of the hardest things to let go. 

I’m not talking about romantically, 
I mean platonically, 
Parentally, 
Even just the bond of family. 

It’s everywhere. 
In friends, 
Parents, 
Siblings, 
Teachers. 

Shown in so many gestures, 
Things as simple as a smile, 
A high-five, 
Or just saying “I’m here for you”

The feeling of being truly loved is explainable, 
It’s like being hugged by your biggest role model after being...

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close

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I want to feel close to someone again. 

I want a girl to
Hold her hand in mine, 
Wrap my arms around, 
Give all my attention to, 
Tell all my secrets, 
Be the real me. 

But it’s hard. 

I’m
Hard to deal with, 
Scared to hurt someone or get hurt again, 
Not your standard of beauty, 
Damaged goods.

Who wants that?

To be close is to know their
Hands, 
Secrets, 
Lips,
Quirks, 
True selves. 

But I don’t know how. 

How...

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not today

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This hurts.
It's not your fault you don't like me back.  
I just wish you wanted to be with me.  
You told me you liked him but I guess it didn't register until I saw your reaction...  
How he makes you smile,  
The way you say his name,  
Your eyes lit up brighter than the sun.

I should've seen this coming.  
Maybe I kind of did.  
I never thought it would hurt this...

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and I just want to scream your name

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I've known you since we were little kids,
You set me on fire. 
Racing pulse,
Sweaty palms, 
My heart can't help but swell, 
and I just want to scream your name.

Your eyes are vibrant and gorgeous,
I could stare at them for a millennium.
You don't understand what I think is so special about them,
But how can anyone not stare? 
and I just want to scream your name

I live your brain,
No way I could be running...

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one year later

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It's been a year.

A year ago…
you were 17 and I was 15,
I was hopelessly infatuated with you,
we were good friends,
talking every day,
the smell of your perfume made me smile,
seeing you overwhelmed me with happiness.

Today…
you are 18 and I am 16,
I am hopelessly infatuated with you,
we are barely friends,
talking scarcely,
the smell of your perfume makes me unbelievably melancholy,
seeing you overwhelms me with anxiety but still a wave...

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thinking...

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My thoughts like to roam free and remind me of things.

Things that I wish I could forget
like the way her perfume smelled
and how perfectly her hand fit in mine,
The way she said my name,
her vibrant personality,
how easily she could make me laugh and blush and feel whole.
It’s not like I want her, but I need her.

Then I finally come back to reality...
I know that she’s past me and onto the next.
...

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