to all those I lied
to
vying for attention
i did something
wrong
so very
wrong
and i
am never going to regain anyone's trust
so what is the point, hm?
it's not nice to play a charade
for so long.
this will not alleviate anyones pain
because i am a fake
redeeming myself is impossible

so why even try
why even try?
if you can give me a reason
then you'll be taking pity on the
wrong bitch

thank...

splattered across these wallpapered sets are the screams of my mother, wild and upset. she runs her hand through her red curls and asks how can i do this? 
i gave myself up is what i say family took me in when i had nowhere to go
you could have stayed with me

should i have stayed with the irish queen
of which looks i have not attained
by my heart is pristine
glass is the color
for i am...

I’m gone
For Good
So Don’t 
Hope
I 
Come
Back
as I fade
into 
The Winter Sun
I dropped my name
Into The Pit of Tartarus 
To give Up my Life for another
I wither in the pink tipped grasses
amongst those who have wronged me
The only healing I have
is sweet Georgia Tea
and the ebony notes
that flow from my Uncle’s bluegrass
harmonica.

people give me looks
as i sit in the waiting room
with him by my side
my breathing gets faster
the 
anxiety 
of 
eyes
watching 
me
but his
whispers;
”it’ll be okay, babydoll.”
then 
the door clicks
open
and
out steps a girl
with long 
golden locks
that cascade down her 
back.
her belly is swollen to the size 
of a 
basketball 
mine is
barely showing
but i’m 
protective
cupping my hands around
my 
child.
the girl notices
my stare ...