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Corbinium

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Hey, it's me! Corbin! I'm a 16 year old guy that tries to live and love. I'm fairly bad at writing, but I do it anyways because it's a great way to express my feelings.

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"Will your tongue still remember the taste of my lips?
Will your shadow remember the swing of my hips?
Will your lover caress you the way that I did?
Will you notice my charm if he slips up one bit?

Cause I don't need to know
I just wanna make sure you're okay
I don't need to know
I just wanna make sure you're all safe."

-Will He by Joji

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Corbinium (United States) published:

Over You

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It's November 11th, 2017, at 3 am. 
I am currently under the influence of lysergic acid diethylamide. 
And I'm over you. 

It took me two months.
Two months of pain and overwhelming anguish and heartbreak. 
Two months of wondering what the hell went wrong.
Two months of feeling like I'm broken.
Two months of having infuriatingly strong feelings for you. 

But now here I am, staring at the ceiling,
As it shifts and morphs into familiar faces,
Talking to myself...

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Asking Why

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Frequently, when I'm alone in my thoughts,
I find myself asking why.
I ask about my feelings.
I'm not sure why. I don't have any answers.
But my dad always told me to ask why so I shall.

Why do I so often lose my motivation to do things?
Why is it so hard to stay clean?
Why did I lie to that person?
Why do I wake up at 4:45 to go jump in an 80 degree pool?
Why...

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Over You

It's November 11th, 2017, at 3 am. 
I am currently under the influence of lysergic acid diethylamide. 
And I'm over you. 

It took me two months.
Two months of pain and overwhelming anguish and heartbreak. 
Two months of wondering what the hell went wrong.
Two months of feeling like I'm broken.
Two months of having infuriatingly strong feelings for you. 

But now here I am, staring at the ceiling,
As it shifts and morphs into familiar faces,
Talking to myself and floating off my bed,
And soaring through space.
And I'm over you.

Make sure you appreciate the next one that comes along,
And loves you with such intense passion that they can't see.
Don't push him away like you did me. Don't tell him that he scares you.
Love him and let him love.
And, someday,
Break his heart. 
Because you can't dedicate, can you?

Okay, yes, I'm bitter. 
But that's besides the point.
The point is that after...

Asking Why

Frequently, when I'm alone in my thoughts,
I find myself asking why.
I ask about my feelings.
I'm not sure why. I don't have any answers.
But my dad always told me to ask why so I shall.

Why do I so often lose my motivation to do things?
Why is it so hard to stay clean?
Why did I lie to that person?
Why do I wake up at 4:45 to go jump in an 80 degree pool?
Why do I get so tired of repetition?
Why do I still love her?
Why can't I move on?
Why doesn't my mom trust me?
Why do I lose my will? 
Why do I live?
Why don't I live?
Why do I think so much?
Why do I ask why?

Questions float around my head,
Questions that end up unanswered and dead.

Talking to “You”

You've Changed

You didn't mean to, did you?
You didn't venture into the darkness with the intent of doing such a thing,
But it happened all the same. 
It changed you. 
The you that emerged from the cave is not the you that entered. 
You've changed.

You don't regret it.
You feel bad, but you don't regret it.
It was wonderful, after all. 
God only knows if you'll be forgiven for it,
but God also knows that it was fantastic.
You forgot all of your problems. 
Everything was gone.
You felt truly, legitimately at peace for the first time in months. 
The repercussions were not as pleasant. It's changing you.

You want it again. You know you shouldn't.
You received more in 6 days than you received over the last 6 months.
You felt alive. You felt important. 
You felt strong.
It was rather sadistic, wasn't it?
The very definition of a guilty pleasure.
Nothing so bad has ever felt so good.
...

The End

I Noticed it happening, but I didn't comment
The Moments are over, never to be seen again 
My favorite Fireworks have fizzled and died
My Star Therapy proved to be false
The Wishes will have to wait
I'm not sad,
or mad,
just defeated.
I have lost a piece of my identity.
I may as well be Untitled.

My pieces have fulfilled their purposes,
but like all things,
they end.

After all,
Who did I write these for?

Truths and Untruths

Wishes

. What do I wish for?

  • I wish Donald Trump wasn't running my country. What a clown.
Now that we have that out of the way...
  • I wish that I was the good-looking athletic kid that everybody likes.
  • I wish that I could maintain a solid friend group for more than 12 months.
  • I wish that I could stop making mistakes.
  • I wish that I could stop ruining my relationships.
  • I wish that I could hear the words "I love you" sincerely said to me every day. 
  • I wish that I could finally beat my demons.
  • I wish that I could be the perfect person everyone expects me to be.
Most of all,
  • I wish that I was happy.
Is that too much to ask?

Star Therapy

There once was a young man. He stood at about 6'1" and wore glasses. He had dark brown eyes and light brown hair. 
He was by no means a very attractive young man; but for the sake of his self-esteem, he pretended that he was. 

He came home one cool, early-summer night in a particularly hazey mood. His eyes were open, but he did not see anything. His mind was racing. Just an hour earlier, his lips had been pressed against the lips of the most entrancingly beautiful girl he had ever met. 
The young man wandered onto his back deck and onto his trampoline, where he laid on his back and gazed gleefully at the stars above. 

"Hey," he said dreamily, "You awake?"
"Of course. What troubles you?" The stars above replied. 
"Not troubled this time. Confused, really." the boy said back. 
"About what?"
"About how I'm feeling. Last time I felt like this... well, you know what happened." ...

Moments

The screen illuminates her,
Though she outshines it in every way. 
I'm watching the movie,
But I'd rather be watching her. 
Her hand is intertwined with mine
My head rests on her shoulder
I feel her chest rise and fall
I hear her heart beating for both of us
It is moments like these, when she holds me, that I begin to wonder 
How I could have doubted her love for me in the first place. 

Open Prompt

The End of Steven Jones

There once was an old man by the name of Steve. 
Steve was a small, frail man, no bigger than 5'4".
At the slow age of 88, Steve sat alone in his house, located at the quiet outskirts of his hometown. 
His life was doomed to routine. 
Wake up. Take medication. Watch TV. Sit outside. More medication. Go to bed. 
Repeat. 

Steve had no parents, no siblings, and no children. 
He didn't matter to anyone. 
He had become yet another insignificant speck in the universe. 
And he knew it. 

Steve woke up one cool, crisp Spring morning. 
He didn't take his medication. 
He did watch TV. 
He did sit outside.
He visited his wife's grave, who laid eternally in his backyard. 
He started to feel sick. For a second, he eyed his pills. 
But he still didn't take them. 

Steven F. Jones laid in his bed that evening, staring and the ceiling,
Waiting for the ending he so viciously craved.  ...

Bliss

It's 10:18 in the afternoon.
Teeth have been brushed,
Pajamas have been put on,
and goodnights have been said. 

I sit alone in my room.
Faint sounds are heard throughout the house:
My sister plays the guitar every night,
I can hear it through the ceiling
From her room above me.
I communicate with my next eldest brother
by knocking on the wall in between our rooms. 
I hear my little brothers bickering next door
Back and forth in their twin bunk bed.
I hear the plumbing and pipes in my walls,
so I always know whenever someone turns on a sink
or flushes a toilet. 
My dog snorts softly at the foot of my bed.
My pen smoothly scratches across my notebook. 
The sound of my ink on my paper soothes me. 

The noises throughout my house are relaxing. 
I am calm, even with
My sister singing Ed Sheeran upstairs,
My brothers arguing over who can do the best...

Fireworks

Love is like a firework. 
It is explosions that burst in the air
It is entrancing colors against a cold, dark night sky
It is strikingly beautiful in every way.
Even after it's gone, the memory pleases you.
But fireworks can be dangerous.
If not carefully operated, someone could get hurt
We risk it anyways. The reward is too compelling:
The shining lights that remind us why we choose to live.
Life is too short to worry about getting burned.

Everyone has their own fireworks
We set them off whenever we choose,
Though it is up to others to decide
Whether or not your fireworks dance alone
Or burst in perfect unison with another.

I don't often get the chance to light my fireworks,
So when I do, I get overexcited and set off too many
Because it feels good to watch my fireworks explode,
Especially when someone else's accompany me.
My favorite fireworks are the ones that I set...

I Noticed

Sometimes, I don't remember how it started.
I don't remember introducing myself
Our only common interests were our mutual friends
The first thing I remember on our timeline was you giving my friend a hug because she had a rough day
I liked your long, almost black hair. That was first. 
I noticed you.

Eventually, I started sitting at the same lunch table as you and our friends. 
You were funny and witty. I remember laughing with you
I was still hooked on another girl at the time. I tried not to stare at you. It almost felt wrong. I barely knew you. 
Yet my eyes always found their way back to yours
Those gorgeous, entrancing eyes.
That was second.
I noticed you.

One day, you very subtly asked me to morp
"If you don't get asked in the next while, do you wanna go?" you asked me
That was the first time you made my heart jump. Something told...

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