Carolyn

United States

Sending love! I'm 18, pan-demi, vegan, and an HSP. My all-time favorite story is 2000 Gladiator and I play the violin. My myers-briggs type is ENSJ. Believe it or not, I strive for simplicity!
BLACK LIVES MATTER - SAY THEIR NAMES

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Carolyn (United States) published:

Rage

FREE WRITING


Anger for my helpless form
Caught in dark halls
Trapped in dim siderooms
Locked in hands that hated me 
And loved my skin

Anger red and strong
Powerful and hateful
Seething and frothing
Vicious, tear tendon from bone
Molten, rend bone to ash

Blood surges
Heart skips
I’ll protect her this time
I’ll rip you apart
I’m awake

I couldn’t protect her
Little girl, little soul
But now I’ll fight
Anger cleanses me
Bathes away your dirty fingerprints with fire
...

6 days ago

Carolyn (United States) published:

Cages

FREE WRITING

Locked in ten million cages. They overlap in places. They do not, one smaller than the next, perfectly expand from those whose bars are driven through my womb out to those designed by the patriarchy's God. But the sides cross in places. Some are lower or higher than the others. 
I’m afraid here, in the place where there is no steel, where I am free to walk in circles for exercise; where I can watch others pursue their dreams from...

about 1 month ago

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Carolyn (United States) published:

Cages

FREE WRITING

Locked in ten million cages. They overlap in places. They do not, one smaller than the next, perfectly expand from those whose bars are driven through my womb out to those designed by the patriarchy's God. But the sides cross in places. Some are lower or higher than the others. 
I’m afraid here, in the place where there is no steel, where I am free to walk in circles for exercise; where I can watch others pursue their dreams from...

about 1 month ago

Carolyn (United States) published:

Cages

FREE WRITING

Locked in ten million cages. They overlap in places. They do not, one smaller than the next, perfectly expand from those closest to my skin out to those designed by the patriarchy's God. But the corners touch in places. Some are lower or higher than the others. 
I’m afraid in this cage. The air is cold and stale and dead, full of my fear. I will never escape. Not for lack of will, because my very being from my "soul"...

about 1 month ago

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about 1 month ago

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Carolyn (United States) published:

Between or Outside?

FREE WRITING

Sick air surrounds me
I am sloughing into the dark
Like dead skin off the host of Marburg
I am sinking off into the edges of reality
My soul hovers between lines
Ni l'un ni l'autre, je suis, j'étais et resterai moi
Man or woman
Strong or weak
Masc or femme
All these and more, all ridiculous and nothing more
My body doesn't determine my actions
Any more than "man" means manly
Unless you're an idiot, you can...

about 1 month ago

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Carolyn (United States) published:

No More Lies

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I am just as good as any man
Can lift as many weights as he can
And perform in tests just as well

I deserve respect as much as any man
My words are sacred and special
And they are worth as much as any man’s

You’ve told me my whole life
I can never be as good
So why try?

You’ve told them their whole lives
They’re better, they don’t need pink
Gentleness, kindness, or even the blues

Can...

about 2 months ago

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Carolyn (United States) published:

Alzheimer's

FREE WRITING

There’s something dark in this place
It’s hidden in the walls
Breathing through the vents
Piercing my heart secretly 
I suffer in silence

Something sick 
Dies in the darkness
Of our minds
Light wouldn’t heal it
But it would heal my heart

Fear drapes over our faces
Our words come out kind
But we know we’re in this nightmare
Together as a family
I want out
That’s why I left
I need to stay out. 
 

2 months ago

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Carolyn (United States) published:

Rescued

FREE WRITING

Messy, stringy letters
To match the chaos in my heart
Dark and empty and apart
Separate from everything and everyone
Alone and cold
I am so sad I am
So sad 

I feel alone and cold
I want to give so much
To everyone that has helped me
They don’t know how much it means to me
To be given a silver hand 
Lifted out of the wreckage of human 
Life that i was born in
The dejected warmth of...

3 months ago

Carolyn (United States) published:

Pain

FREE WRITING

Insidious and sneaky
Pain brought my grandmother to her knees
Shot through the earth like a lightning bolt to
Outdo time
And plunged into my mother’s arm through
Happy needles 

Now there is me
Quiet and clever
Pain strikes when I’m alone
And breaks my mind for
A few minutes or hours
Days

3 months ago