At home. In my own room. I don’t need to pretend, to be all those that I’m not. I don’t have to be happy, or be the cheerful one. I don’t have to bring light to the world, i can be the darkness without guilt.
Lock the door for me. Put on some musics as well. The voice of Merethe Solvdt soothes me, and all those unhappy moments are resolved, locked outside the thin walls of my room, and out...

At home. In my own room. I don’t need to pretend, to be all those that I’m not. I don’t have to be happy, or be the cheerful one. I don’t have to bring light to the world, i can be the darkness without guilt.
Lock the door for me. Put on some musics as well. The voice of Merethe Solvdt soothes me, and all those unhappy moments are resolved, locked outside the thin walls of my room, and out...

Parents call.
Siblings yell.
Chaos.
But I love it anyway.
 

Anxiety 

I honestly don't know 
My days are gloomy
I deeply inhaled
I can't breath 
Eyes blood-red from crying
I just said "I'm actually sad,
why do I feel bad?"

Anxiety

I'm unsure
Scared
Doubting 
This will all be a mess...
I'm trapped 
It's crazy enough to be 
Imprisoned in your own mind
What more could it do to me
If I can't even get in luck with life

Anxiety

The feeling or worrying 
The feeling of unease
The feeling...

Everywhere is darkness,
everywhere is light.
There is always day
and there is always night.

Everywhere is loneliness,
everywhere is connection.
There are always people
if not always reception.

Everywhere is noise,
everywhere is silence.
There is always quiet 
hiding amongst the violence. 

Everywhere is broken,
everywhere is pristine.
There may still be beauty
waiting to be seen.

Everywhere is...

Everywhere is everything:
Turmoil and calm,
Forward and backward,
Ancient and modern.

The pejorative and laudatory
tangle into one.
Though...

Working, I pause to gaze over the mountain, to
see if the world was as dark as it felt.
I saw the blue sky, I saw the white clouds, move,
restlessly. I saw the birds glide, I saw the hawks,
search. I saw the men work, I saw the children play,
and I saw myself looking for stillness. 
Then I saw it, before me always, unmoving and
unmoved, the mountain. It stands and it does
not rest, it stands showing...

This I believe:
    that certainties never exist 
         because doubt comes-
            fast and loud
 and 
suddenly what was certain is a lie
    and what was outrageous now is true
and 
the uncertainty of not knowing is 
   the only certainty you have

This I believe:
 that what brings you down can make you rise
    with open, feathered wings as you 
say to yourself, "Yes, I...

To whom it may concern,
My name is [REDACTED]. and I'm writing to you from the past to tell you about-

Well, I'm not sure myself. You always used to start letters and emails like that, but it never really made sense, did it? I wouldn't want to turn this letter into some grand, vivid tale like you usually did with all my writing works.

I've said my name, but I guess I should have mentioned that I'm you from...