I always loved to tell stories.
Sometimes I imagined myself as the Storygirl or Sara Crewe from A Little Princess.
I always wanted to make people feel and see my stories unfolding before their eyes.
But I didn't think I had the magic.
I would stutter or change my mind mid-sentence any time I tried to tell a story to my siblings.
They were patient, but I could tell my tellings bored them sometimes.
I couldn't make my eyes sparkle or act out the different voices of characters.
Sometimes I made gestures with my hands, but I usually forgot.
My stories weren't real, not even to me. I could never affect people like the tellers I read about did.
Why did I even bother trying?
Because, a voice whispered to me when I was ready to give up storytelling, because you are a voice. You have a voice. Perhaps it's not like Sara's, but you have a voice and you have stories. Yes, you stutter and change the story as you tell it. Yes, the pictures you create aren't the best. But you can still tell beautiful stories with your voice.
My voice is terrible. Nobody likes to hear it. It doesn't make pictures. It doesn't bring stories to life.
You're using the wrong voice.
What do you mean?
There are different voices in everybody. I am one of yours. Your speaking voice is one.
My writing voice is a third.
I learned that soon.
Now I write my stories. I don't stutter with a pen. I can rewrite my sentences before anybody reads them. I can put more into the pictures.
Perhaps the stories I write still don't affect anybody the way I want, my eyes don't sparkle, I forget gestures. Maybe people still hate to hear it.
My writing voice has become my favorite.