AbigailSauble

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' "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet My unfailing love for you will not be shaken, nor My covenant of peace be removed," says the LORD.' ~ Isaiah 54:10

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"Most people never meet their heroes;
I grew up with mine." ♥

“And the one good thing about being down here, is that we’ll save on funeral expenses.” ~ Puddleglum (The Silver Chair)

As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them. ~ John F. Kennedy

How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard. ~ Winnie the Pooh

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When I didn't ...

December 12, 2018

FREE WRITING

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When I didn’t look you in the eyes when you said ‘hello’,
It wasn’t because I was ashamed of you.

When I didn’t laugh at your fun-hearted joke,
It wasn’t because you weren’t funny.

When I didn’t reply to your emails right away,
It wasn’t because I was ignoring you.

When I didn’t ask how you were doing,
It wasn’t because I didn’t care.

When I didn’t meet you at Starbucks,
It wasn’t because I didn’t want to see you.

When I didn’t visit you at the hospital,
It wasn’t because I didn’t love you.

It was because I was afraid of losing you.

My childhood friend,
My trouble-making buddy,
My coffee-drinking pal,
My shoulder to cry on,
My everlasting encourager.

You were these things.

And I couldn’t bear to see you like that.
Cancer hollowing out your beautiful features.
Every time you laughed, it ended in a hard cough.

I couldn’t watch you without crying.
But every day I wanted to gaze into your eyes one last time.
Every day, I wanted to laugh at your jokes.
Every day I wanted to explain how much I cared about you.
Every day I wanted you to know how much I loved you.

But every day, fear clogged up my throat and my eyes,
And only in the privacy of my bedroom did I sob.
I begged on my knees for God to spare you.
But in His omnipotent wisdom, He had other plans.

Now you’re gone.
No more pain,
No more tears,
No more cancer.

And all I can say now, is how sorry I am for not being there with you.

And how much I love you.

So very, very much.

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7 Comments
  • AbigailSauble

    Thank you for both! =)


    11 months ago
  • korra4life

    I just wrote my review. This is an incredible poem.


    11 months ago
  • Victoria Penning

    You just made me cry... I know how this is, and the pain, and sadness is almost unimaginable.


    11 months ago
  • AbigailSauble

    Thank you all for the kind comments and everything! This is semi-true. Using bits and pieces from different times in my life.
    God bless you guys!!


    12 months ago
  • green.eyes.gurl

    I know what this feels like. This girl that I used to be insanely close with was recently diagnosed with cancer. Now I just want to be around her all the time because I don't know how much longer I have with her, but at the same time, seeing her in the clothes that are slowly getting looser as she is losing weight, the hair falling out constantly to the point where there is almost nothing left now, all of it makes me even more anxious then I usually am, and I can just imagine how bad she will get.
    If this is true, honey I am so sorry. If you need to talk ever, I am here. If you just want someone to cheer you up,I am here for you always and forever! <3


    12 months ago
  • AntChanel

    Words can't describe how I feel right now-
    I can imagine how you feel, because ive been in a similar place.


    12 months ago
  • Mangolover

    This is really deep and (if this is true, then) I can't say I know how you feel, but I can try to know how you feel. If this is just a poem you wrote to express your feelings, then great job as you really captured the essence of emotions. Well done!


    12 months ago