zoboe3

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Compliments

November 29, 2018

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I’ve never really been “skinny”
I’ve never had a big chest
But when I was little
I would always get complimented on my eyes
And my hair
Being told that they were beautiful
Or as one person said,
“Hypnotizing”
And I would take the compliment
Because I was used to it
But now that I’m older
I never get compliments anymore
Even the two things that I thought
Were my best features
Don’t get acknowledged
I thought I should’ve gotten more compliments
But I didn’t
The only time my butt was a decent size
Was when I was fatter
And I was fatter because
When I was little
I didn’t know how to deal with anything
Anything being the blood curdling thoughts
And memories that seeped into my mind
As if from the smoke I would inhale at my grandmother’s house
Or from the cigar my step father would taste every once in a while
And because of that food was my resort
And I would never get a compliment
I would be thankful if I did
I was hoping that one day
I would finally have that growth spurt everyone talks about
So I could grow in height
And my stomach would finally flatten out
At least a small amount just to get me started
So I could finally feel as if I did something right for once
But that never happened
And I am still four foot eleven because of it
I would’ve gotten compliments
But it never happened
I get teased a lot because of these things
Or I did until I finally lost a few pounds on my own
But that’s okay
Because every once in a while
When I really start to pour my feelings out
And feel that sting in my eyes that appears for no good reason
I get those spontaneous one or two people
That give me the compliment
That helps me from feeling anymore numb
Than I already do
And I’ll take the compliments
And cherish them like I never have before

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3 Comments
  • Silver Pen

    I bet your eyes are still beautiful. And you are very beautiful in God's eyes! He loves you, and He is so proud of your writing and your grades and your beautiful, beautiful soul! He wants to say hi!
    "Hi."
    There, I'll help Him out a little bit. :)
    I feel like when you were little, you lived in a turbulent home where your dads never gave you the love you needed. You were starved for love and maybe even hit a few times. Jesus saw it all, and He wanted so badly to step in and be a shield against all the teasing at school and all the lies that your parents and friends told you about yourself. He didn't because He wouldn't force Himself on you like a guy who shoves girls into lockers and takes their kisses by force. He wanted your permission to become involved in your life. And I promise, if you do, you will never be the same. In a good way. ;) I've seen God move in power to help his children, and I've felt the love of my Heavenly Daddy for me. I pray that He will show you that love in a way that you can't help but understand. In Jesus' name, amen.


    about 1 year ago
  • Quille

    Have a compliment on me: your poetry is very beautiful and emotional :DD


    about 1 year ago
  • CreativeAngel

    I love this piece! I see great potential in you and hope you keep writing. Overall, if no one else, i bet you're really pretty in reality. Your beauty must be too much for others to handle ;).


    about 1 year ago