Fc86dac3 f14b 45be af25 a653c96cb866

Alicat

United States

I am just a young writer hoping to make a difference in the world I live in.

I'm a nerd :)
Animal Lover
Bookworm
Photographer
Musicophile

I have so many ideas and nowhere to start.

Message to Readers

Warning: This one is depressing.

The Truth

November 19, 2018

FREE WRITING

3
I might laugh at your words
and seem to brush them off 
but the truth is your words
cut me deeper than any knife
could ever hope to.
I might smile and joke
when you are around me
but alone
I finally take off the mask
I feel like I have to constantly wear around you.

The truth is I am
highly sensitive
and though I try to hide my feelings
they all eventually bubble up and
explode
making me fall deeper into this mess
I insist on calling
my life.

The truth is my mind is
always racing
full of things to say
and do
but they never leave their
prison cell in my mind
but just because they are
trapped
doesn't mean they aren't there.

The truth is I have 
no idea
how to act around other people
because of the constant
pressure
I feel from the people
around me already.

The truth is I am
not
put together
like a happy jigsaw puzzle
with a peaceful scene
painted with painstaking detail.
If I was a puzzle
I would be barely started
some piece together normal
I'm sure
but most either
forced together when they
clearly don't fit
or snapped right in half
all pieces blurred in color
or completely black.

Now that I say the
truth I locked away
hidden
does this change 
anything at all?
I already know the answer
is no
and nothing will ever change
but it was nice to think
even just for a minute
I could say the truth
instead of hiding away
forever.

Print

See History
1

Login or Signup to provide a comment.

2 Comments
  • Mangolover

    sooo deep and emotional! love it :)


    9 months ago
  • CaisidePoetry

    Love this! Feels very real. <3


    9 months ago