from sydney and austin, but currently living in singapore.
in the process of writing a full-fledged book with three amazing other humans.

you built me palaces out of paragraphs

black lives matter

Message to Readers

So I am at A MAJOR LOSS FOR WORDS in my SP alongside Unspoken. I couldn't even convey the feeling, that's how bad my block was. Then I went: Hey, I should write a poem about this!

So I did.

Well, that took longer than I expected.

being a writer

November 10, 2018


being a writer means
being inside
on a warm summer's day

a steaming mug of coffee on a slow morning
staring listlessly at the cup
or into space
your mind somewhere else
than at this mundane table
on this mundane morning
gazing into the mundane swirls of the milk and the coffee

the bright glow of your screen on a sleepless night
eyes so droopy they can barely stay open
the ever familiar
just one more paragraph
glasses askew on your face
the deep breaths

you aren't a writer if you haven't felt
the bounce of your bed as you flop onto it
thinking to yourself
where is this story going?
and sometimes
how does rock bottom feel so comfortable?

because maybe one day ideas dart around in your brain
like goldfish do in a fishbowl
swim               swim
      swim          swim
and the next day
maybe you feel the confinements of the fishbowl
telling yourself
i will reach the ocean someday
but you are stuck 
swimming loops
in the fishbowl

being a writer means the migraines at school or work the next day
thinking about your novel
or your manuscript
or your unfinished poems
being a writer means the struggle of flowing ideas in the storm
with no way to pen them all
so yes
we forget

being a writer means having your mind tear
as you wrench yourself out of your little universe
and back into reality
being a writer means sore eyes
and flying fingers
being a writer means face-palms
and plot holes
and characters with no stories
and stories with no ends
and ends with tears
because what would you do
if you didn't write?

being a writer means your own world
means you have stories in your eyes
and ink in your blood
being a writer is 
a roller-coaster kinda rush
the way your heart soars as you drop

being a writer means learning to appreciate the beauty
on the desert island

being a writer is the taste of chocolate
or the head cold you can't get rid of
being a writer means
you can see light
even when the universe is submerged in darkness

being a writer is the arms of someone you love
wrapped tightly around you
being a writer is a comforting voice in your ear
i'm there for you

learning that it is okay to get stuck
is part of being a writer

because even though your mind remains stubbornly closed
you write
even though you feel like your world is crumbling down
you write
even though you feel like everything's closing in
you write
even though you feel like there is nothing you can do
you write

being a writer means being brave enough
to put your words out there
when no one else will

because even though you feel like your words aren't enough
you write

because you know what it's like



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  • Dmoral

    Peer review sent!

    over 1 year ago
  • Tziporah Dorfman

    THIS IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!! I can relate to this so so so much!! Thank you for LITERALLY reading my mind! What an amazing poem...

    over 1 year ago
  • AminahMcBina

    Hey! I saw your comment on my piece "Disguised Assassin" and I was wondering, can I resubmit? I already submitted an excerpt of my novel "Forgotten." Well I haven't submitted it as my final, but I submitted for a review.

    Thanks, Mina

    over 1 year ago
  • JCWriter

    Easily one of the best poems I've read in a while. This is beautiful; good job!

    over 1 year ago
  • paperbird

    I love this so much; most accurate thing I've seen on the subject.

    over 1 year ago
  • AminahMcBina

    Oh for the love of blueberries, this was amazing!

    over 1 year ago
  • AbigailSauble

    Amen, sister!!!! (*echo* amen...)

    over 1 year ago
  • Syl

    this is beautiful!! as a writer, of course, i really agree with this. so many goldfish...

    over 1 year ago
  • Oscar_Locke

    So powerful. Oh, and the formatting! This is great :D

    over 1 year ago