I can't find her.
No matter where I look, how hard I search.
My heart wants her back so strongly,
I fear I may never know where she has gone.
I need her.
I need her to be safe,
To be healthy,
To be alive.
I need to know where she is.
I can't go on like this.
I hate the me without her.
I hate me.
The idea of her lost and alone scares me
The idea of her sick and dying, terrifies me.
The idea of her dead somewhere horrifies me.
Am I jumping the gun?
Will she be back soon?
I can't imagine her leaving.
I don't know how to make this better.