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Casually broken, but it's fine

Message to Readers

I just felt like re-uploading this, so... here ya go!
Anything you think would help my writing would be gladly accepted. Thank you.


March 29, 2019


Was my Him
He did things
Horrible things
He said...
He said He could put
His fist somewhere
Where His fist shouldn't be.
He said...
He said He still has feelings for me.
He said...
He said He would always love me.
But why?
Why did He...
Why did He ask her
To do those things for Him?
Why did He ask her
To strip for Him?
Why does he always...
Why does He always talk?
Talk about me?
Talk about the us?
Talk about what used to be?
Talk about what He believes
could still be?
Why does He lie?
Why does He say those things?
Why did He say...
Why did He say I'm sexy?
Why did He say He wants to kiss me?
Why did He say He killed a man?
Why did He say He cut himself?
Why did He say His parents hate him?
Why did He say those things?
The truth is...
I don't know.
I don't know why he did what he did
All I know
Is that he used to be my Him
But now
He's just
He makes me uncomfortable.
He lies.
He cheats.
He used to be my Him.
I want to make this clear: Nothing in this poem was fake.
Not His name.
Not what He said.
Not what He did.
None of it.


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  • RubyRedDreams

    I may not know you but if you need me to kill this guy for you...

    about 1 year ago
  • AminahMcBina

    Remember, you've got a friend in me. Anytime I hear about some punk ass motherfucker hurting you, it hurts me, Hon. I'd beat that bitch's ass. I was just so mad reading this piece. I know it is similar/a revised version of the piece you submitted for my #ICBY contest, but shit, rereading it was the worst thing I've done all day. Don't let anyone hurt you, Love, and if they do. That's what I'm here for.

    How are things between you, Zack (zach?), and Aaliyah? Hope ya'll doing better.

    Love you,
    Mina <3

    about 2 years ago
  • xXlunagirlXx

    Let's see... slap all the aarons i know (1)...check..kill all the Aaro- awww he ran!!!

    Hope this made you laugh, i know i laughed (at my story not yours, i really wanna track him down and beat a lesson into him, us girls gotta stick together) Have a beautiful life!

    about 2 years ago
  • Kahasai

    Jeeez ... I hope you're okay now.

    The format of the piece really makes me empathize with what you said.

    about 2 years ago
  • Julius Caesar

    yikes. i'm so sorry. i hope a welcome to night vale quote make you feel better: "the past is gone and cannot harm you anymore. while the future is fast and coming for you, it always flinches first and settles in as the gentle present."

    about 2 years ago
  • Chloe_Cat

    In every darkness there is light. Loveing the way you wrote this piece. It really spoke to me. Great job.

    about 2 years ago
  • f l o r a

    Catherine. get on discord, we need youuuuu

    about 2 years ago
  • Queencey

    I'm so sorry :( that's rough

    about 2 years ago
  • f l o r a


    about 2 years ago
  • spearmint

    Oh, that was powerful. I'm really sorry for what that dude did. It must have been really horrible. Beautifully written and very impactful.

    about 2 years ago
  • f l o r a

    He seems like a disgusting pig that doesn't deserve your love in the slightest. You deserve more love than imaginable. I hope things get better for you.
    Also..hi again.

    about 2 years ago
  • janice

    Contest winners are up!

    about 2 years ago
  • Rose, Thorn

    I have a beautiful him who I love and he loves me and I am so sad to hear what happened to u and I hope everything gets better for u. All my love goes to u.

    about 2 years ago
  • muppet

    Oof, I felt that. Beautiful. Loved it.

    about 2 years ago
  • Deej

    I feel you, dude. I knew someone like your Him. He was my Him. But i didnt know my Him wouldnt be a Her so it was weird. Anyways, you're brave posting this. Props to you Catherine

    about 2 years ago
  • Alexis K

    Hey Caitlin love of u need to talk we can I really want to talk li!e we used to too I just went down hill cutting and everything and it just got bad
    Z talk to me

    about 2 years ago
  • janice

    Contest winners are up!

    about 2 years ago
  • Avin

    Aaron huh. i know an Aaron. maybe I can slap the Aaron I know and all the Aarons including this one will feel it...

    about 2 years ago
  • Mangolover

    So Sorry about this... I know it may be kind of late for me to reply, but you did a great job on expressing your feelings in this piece. I don't have much words to say, but being honest, I'm sorry for a lot of things in life too. Keep up the amazing writing :)

    about 2 years ago
  • hibasaurus

    This is written beautifully. I'm so so sorry

    over 2 years ago
  • Aussie23

    I'm sorry..... That's all I can say, I'm not very good at saying what I feel but I am truly sorry.

    over 2 years ago
  • valentina

    Oh my goodness I'm so sorry! That was an amazing poem, keep writing; when life gets overwhelming and crazy and sad, I know poetry is my outlet to process everything. You're so talented and I can just feel your emotions jumping out from the page. I know I already said this but keep writing <3

    over 2 years ago
  • Avin

    Holy... I have the strongest urge to find you and hug you now. That was beautiful and sad and happy and broken and oh my god I want to find this "Him" and slap him. No one should have to go through this.

    over 2 years ago
  • Catlover

    Welcome to Write the World, fellow writer!

    over 2 years ago
  • SomeFormOfWriting

    Omg... I knew someone like this "Him" once, and I know how much he hurt people, and it's horrible. I haven't personally experienced this myself, but I can sympathize. I'm sorry you had to go through this. Anyway, I assume you're new to this site, so greetings, I hope you enjoy this community. <3

    over 2 years ago