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If I lose myself I lose it all

September 28, 2018


“If I lose myself I lose it all”

I’m running. To or from, where or what, I can’t... I don’t know. I need to get out of my head. Get out of my head. Out.
Somewhere. Anywhere but

it can’t be found

Turning, turning, turning
Because I know I can never escape Myself
But I still try
I can't-

I’m running

“If I lose myself I lose it all”

It is bound by the infinite, the limitless is the ultimate limit
It suffocates
Where is refuge now?
It smothers all, everything
Particles choke and are choked, hunter and hunted
But I am the hunted

Can we ever be free from the weight of the universe?
No; and I become nothing

Yet, all is nothing
All and nothing, fused together into a fabric of burden, oppression
We cannot escape
Never truly free

I still try to run

Wearier, breathing
gasps of air

“If I lose myself I lose it all”

Can this running continue forever?

When even the Grecian Urn with all its timelessness and sterility
Falls short of Eternity’s dawdles across the cosmos
What, then, is the use of running?
When even the fletcher’s zooming arrow denies itself of motion in mid-air,
every instant a frozen snapshot of its impossible sorrow
What, then, is the use of running?
When even the arms of an old maid tire of labour, and the most viciously-stirred pot of soup returns to equilibrium
What, then, is the use of running?
When everywhere you run is still under the dominion of the Universe
What, then, is the use of running?

“If I lose myself I lose it all”

It is more worth to accept
That separating myself from the constraints of this world
Will not happen

And that
The mountains
The wind
The smiles
The heartbeat
Is more than what I will ever need.

I sit down.
This was inspired by the song Runnin' (Naughty Boy, Beyonce), and "If I lose myself I lose it all" came from this song as well. Grecian Urn is a reference to Keat's Ode to a Grecian Urn where he admires the timeless quality of the jar/urn, but then rejects the idea of him wanting to be like it at the end, which I also based the structure on for this poem. The arrow is from the Fletcher's paradox in that if the arrow is stopped at a point in time it is neither moving from anywhere nor going to where it is, because if it did it would defeat the point because it was already there (you know what just read it up cause I'm talking too much thank you for reading this long-winded footnote gday to you) 

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  • Christy Wisdom

    Oh wow, I only just saw this but I absolutely love it!! It has a beautiful flow, and I love the imagery and the tone. AMAZING!

    about 2 years ago
  • nezi_nes

    I have no idea. Good question. I never wondered how people get married, like the technical aspects of it

    about 2 years ago
  • aggressivebackflip

    Where can I get a marriage form, please

    about 2 years ago
  • Johanna

    This is incredible! Love it love it love it!

    over 2 years ago
  • Luna Lemon

    Awww your too kind @nezi_nes:) I can always tell you care SOOO much as well with your amazing comments. I'm glad I could make you happy, this piece is worth a thousand kind words and more<3<3<3

    over 2 years ago
  • nezi_nes

    Luna Lemon- you are so incredible and I love what you do on wtw. I can tell you care deeply about people (seeing your comments everywhere) and yours made me smile so much and my heart is like bursting right now. Thank you so much for your insightful feedback and I'm so happy you enjoyed it!!

    over 2 years ago
  • Luna Lemon

    This poem is absolutely stunning. The format, allusions(arrow and grecian urn), word choice, imagery, tone... just all SOOOOO great. And the FORMAT!!! It made this piece even more unique highlighting important words and letting certain sentences flow beautifully together. It really read like a person's thoughts spiralling out of control. Until the last few lines when finally the reader feels peaceful after the whirlwind of thoughts. That was done PHENOMENALLY and I can't express how much I loved that last line wrapping this poem together. I love the line, "Particles choke and are choked, hunter and hunted". The word choice really made me feel like I was out of breath; waiting for the climax of the poem. And then the resolution where you finally calm down with the mountains and wind and sitting down... *claps hands obsessively*.
    I can tell you spent so much time and effort into this. This is one of my favorite poems I've read and I love absolutely everything about it.
    INCREDIBLE JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    over 2 years ago
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    over 2 years ago