"ohmygod, i can't believe i almost forgot to eat lunch again," she laughs
they're caught up in algebra 2 homework
he grabs her lunchbox for her. it's green.
"you're going to drop dead someday," he reminds her. he's teasing.
he likes her. a lot.
the third one here, he's a skinny guy.
i wish i had her strength. her ability to forget.
i can't forget food. it's always there, in the number. always in my head.
calories. i hate them.
800 today, but it could have been 600 if i had tried a little harder.
2000 to maintain, 1000 to lose.
calories, calories, calories.
i hide behind my 140 avocado.
i'm screaming behind closed teeth.
i breathe hard into my 76 mango.
i retreat into my 177 self.
behind the lockers, beneath, are all three of us. i am apart.
"don't forget this time," i say to her. she laughs, because she's kind.