Made4Love

United States

Catholic
Girl
17
4'10" -short:)
Bookworm
Writer
Dreamer
Runner
Nature Lover
Crocheter
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I am passionately pro-life, pro-God, & pro-gun.
My life mission: spread Love through Joy
I seek to glorify God in all that I do (& write).

Message to Readers

I wrote this in a moment of frustration and bitterness. Hope it is not too depressing:)

Thanking you for taking the time to read and comment on my works! I would love to hear what you think. What am I doing well? How can I improve? I appreciate any feedback you have. I hope you enjoy!
Thanks again, and I'm praying for you all!

I'm Sorry | Emotionless #SFOW11

December 5, 2018

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I'm sorry. 

I'm sorry, Dad,
that I am your daughter.
I'm sorry that I 
   procrastinate
   put things off
   am forgetful
   get angry
   have a temper
   hold grudges,
   don't do my chores
   make little sense sometimes.

I'm sorry, Mom,
that I am your daughter.
I'm sorry that I 
   am a perfectionist
   like to do things in a certain order
   am stubborn
   get frustrated
   throw a fit
   misunderstand
   am too involved
   take on too much.

I'm sorry
that I
don't meet expectations.
I'm sorry that I
   am not what you want me to be
   don't act like a perfect angel.
I'm sorry
for being different,
wrong.
I'm sorry that I am not
   perfectly grown-up and knowledgeable
   perfectly willing and helpful
   perfectly artistic and pretty
   perfectly thoughtful and energetic
   perfectly innocent and adorable
as all my siblings.

I'm sorry 
for being
me.
I'm sorry that I 
   like my privacy
   prefer independence
   understand things differently
   am still learning and maturing
   feel insecure and uncertain
   argue, disappoint, and annoy
   am a night owl (not a morning riser)
   feel like an inconvenience.
  
I'm sorry 
for everything.
I'm sorry I
   don't always understand
   am not everything I know I should be
   mess things up
   can't do everything,
      be everything.

I'm sorry
   I'm not good enough
   I have your flaws
   I am your daughter.


God, please be with me.
This was a prompt by SomeFormOfWriting that I never got around to writing until now. 
The prompt asked for a poem that expressed feeling/emotion without using "emotion words" (happy, sad, angry, afraid, etc.). So although I have used some "emotion words," (angry, frustrated, etc.), that is not the tone of this piece. Yes, I was angry and upset when I wrote this, but what I felt was something slightly different. 

Sometimes, I feel
   worthless
   inferior
   misunderstood
   like the least favorite child.

And no, my parents are not abusive or especially cruel to me (please don't think that's what I mean!), but I sure don't feel great about myself sometimes.

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3 Comments
  • BrokenSmile

    I know you wrote this a while ago, but I really like it. It captures the feeling o feel sometimes. I especially like the formatting and repetition of the phrase “I’m sorry”. Keep it up!


    over 1 year ago
  • Made4Love

    Thank you! That really meant a lot to me!


    over 1 year ago
  • Jae

    Wow, this is really really good! I was just reading this, and you know we feel a little worthless sometimes, but I don't know... something about this was really sending big signals to my brain!
    No joke I got goosebumps the first time I read this, and after about the 3rd time through, I started to feel a little bit more like I was back on earth again.
    I guess I have no clue what just happened, but it was really something else!
    :D


    over 1 year ago