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the artist: a rant disguised as a poem

April 6, 2018

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last night,
i saw you.

you were effortless,
dressed in black,
your honey-colored hair cascading behind you

and i felt like a lonely island
littered with trash
while you were the sun
that bleached my banks.

you.
you are everything i am not
and i can't change that-
i wanted to undo myself.

last night,
i didn't mean to do it.

i swear
i'm not crazy
and i'm not doing it
for attention.

but it's easy to get your hands on sharp objects
if you know where they are
and it's easy to hide them
when you told your mom and dad
those days are over.

it's easy
when your skin is a canvas
but it's hard
to draw blood at first
and you end up with more marks
than you intended to make.

it's hard
to hide under your clothing
and it's hard
when you wake up the next morning
and you regret it all.

but it's also hard
when you're as ugly as me
and you're trapped in your own skin
under a mask
you can't escape
so the only way to cope
is to keep making masterpieces.


 
i really feel like i need to get this off my chest, because nobody knows about it. sorry that this is so cryptic, and that i can't straight-up tell anyone

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4 Comments
  • Dani A. Remlap

    Cryptic only to those who haven't been there. I understand, sweetie. Not sure if that's good or not. Just know that you can always drop a line or write a poem or a rant and you'll be supported.


    over 1 year ago
  • ethereal.otherworldly

    oh my god. sweetheart, i did the same thing yesterday. i meant to do one and made six. i wanted to write a poem about it but was worried they would take it down.


    over 1 year ago
  • KaylaM78

    Writing is a way of expressing yourself and can be a way of confessing secrets in cryptic ways without having to be straightforward. Wonderfully written piece.


    over 1 year ago
  • Super0smitty

    This is beautiful and i went through the same thought process but insted of cutting i thought of jumping


    over 1 year ago