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Delia Rune

"Un-forgiving" my Mother

July 2, 2021

PROMPT: Oral Histories

When I was growing up, my mother
was never home. My father
once recorded three-year-old me's ritual 
of waking up from my afternoon nap
and crying about her betrayal. After which I would promptly
go back to my building blocks.
I had to forgive her.

When I was growing up, my mother
never cooked the fancy food that everybody
else seemed to bring to school every day. 
I spent all recess in the football ground
or the basketball court with no tiffin box 
in sight whenever it was my mother's turn
to make breakfast;
but I always made sure
to swallow up the soggy dosas and wash the dishes
before she returned 
home. I didn't want her to feel bad.
I forgave her.

My mother never helped me pick out my clothes
or stayed awake all night to help me study.
She sometimes made time for school events,
but always had to leave early. 
She never had the time or space to dress up 
our apartment, so my friends never
visited. I never wanted them to.
I forgave her for it.

When my relatives mocked my mother's apparent
lack of taste,
her horrible culinary skills,
or her mostly-absent parenting system
based on blind trust;
I never joined in, even though
it was true.
I always forgave her. 

Look at her, my mother:
a doctor, a daughter,
a wife, a mother.
Fighting a society that still wants
to break her and turn her daughters against
her. Fighting to study in a world that 
wanted her married and dolled up and 
locked in the kitchens of some unfamiliar mansion.
To marry the man of her choice.
Fighting to work; to build
a legacy of her own, where everyone who 
mocks her in their living rooms need to sit opposite
her in her office and put their lives
into her hands.

Sitting there on her throne,
she doesn't need my forgiveness.
I need hers.
"This society only ridicules the people whose power they're most afraid of."


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  • SunV

    Coming back to this wonderful piece again and again haha, i just can't stop reading it!!!

    3 months ago
  • Ava Marie

    Re: Thanks!!

    3 months ago
  • R.j.Elsewhere

    omg that last stanza is something else! gorgeously written and so raw :) great job

    3 months ago
  • SunV

    I love this so much, you've done such a wonderful job!

    3 months ago