Anne Blackwood

United States

16
Christian
Poet
Singer
Theatre kid
Twin
Disabled (chronically ill)
Suspected autistic
ADHD
Highly Sensitive Person
Kindness Krusader: Blueberry cotton candy
XXFJ, Melancholic-Sanguine, ambivert

Joined 1/16/20

Message to Readers

Originally posted June 9th, 2021

love, beautiful love

June 9, 2021

FREE WRITING

14

i loved a boy
and he was soft and sharp
sweet upon strong upon confusion upon camaraderie

my love pained me
each time it strayed
beyond the limits of my intentions

but it was love
and it was beautiful

i love a man
and he is dark and kind
moments upon mischief upon happiness upon heartache

my love pains me
each time i notice
shadows where it can never lead

but it is love
and it is beautiful
I realized more than ever that I need to actively start getting over MB in a romantic way, as it only makes things worse for us. But last night, I wanted to write a sort of resolution poem about him. I doubt it'll be the last thing I write for him, but I'm not going to go out of my way to write more.
The boy in the first half of the poem is the only other person who I've ever loved romantically (as opposed to loving them platonically and liking them romantically). I felt inspired to compare/contrast the two people for some reason. Don't read into that too much; it's just how inspiration struck lol.
P. S. The reason I called the first guy a boy and the second one a man is just because MB is nearly 18. That and it made a nice contrast between childhood love and a slightly older, more complicated one. Not that the first love wasn't complex, I have at least a hundred poems that prove it was, but this new love is very different.

Print

See History
  • June 9, 2021 - 11:23pm (Now Viewing)

Login or Signup to provide a comment.

5 Comments
  • anemoia by a thread

    so much emotion packed into this poem... i know it can be absolutely crazy and confusing and hard to process or explain, but you put it into words so beautifully


    1 day ago
  • happy butterfly

    i just realised that my whole feed is you lol


    3 days ago
  • FantasyOtter12

    Re: Thanks so much! Ill fix it in the next rhymes with :D


    5 days ago
  • WrenBirdWrites

    Thanks for the sword, I am slaying the lions with some difficulty..


    5 days ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Woahhh that footnote is a beast oops


    5 days ago