encapsulated_emotions

United Kingdom

"i am out with lanterns, looking for myself" - ED
seventeen year old poet

Message to Readers

this is such a chaotic piece but realising that your past poetry is terrible should not be taken lightly... it deserves a terrible poem, of course.

i feel sick.

May 28, 2021

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my head is making me feel sick to the core
my stomach is churning like butter
but it’s so sour

i created art that didn’t deserve to see the light of day
but now its caressed by spotlights and all the audience say
is wow
that poetry isn’t worth a penny or a broken tray

but it’s mine
and i want to fight for it
yet i feel so ashamed
something compels me to turn away

leave it buried like treasure for a ghost
leave it rotting like scraps of a magical curse

i feel ill just glancing at those words
they were written by someone else
a girl who wanted to rhyme
she always wrote as though she was running
running running far away

she’s from another time
i don’t miss her
yet she was all i had

my writing has improved
so why do i feel so sad?

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3 Comments
  • Just_A_Memory

    That third stanza though. Of course it's worth fighting for!


    4 months ago
  • sunfish

    Like you read my mind! Love this :)


    4 months ago
  • Ren(hiatus)

    Ahhh I really get this! I feel this way towards my own poetry too, i really love how you've written this. It's kinda really relatable


    4 months ago