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Casually contemplating the meaning of life
Constantly surprised by reality
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Message from Writer

I like writing poetry, short stories, and the occasionaly nonfiction piece.

Here you'll find all sorts of poetry, short stories, mini series about my boys, and some D&D (dungeons and dragons) tales. Hope you enjoy!

You should know that you have potential.
You can do great things.
If you want you can be an amazing writer, and a great person.
Take a moment to love yourself.


Feeling rather hopeless these days, I must be a miserable sight

May 22, 2021


People say the brain is like a battery-
I often wish I could turn it off.

If I am an electronic, can someone please shoot me the code to make the tear function stop?

Because I'm starting to corrode, and I think I may go short.

All this whirring in my brain is too much to handle.
Turn it off
Turn it off
Turn it off


How many times have I wondered- am I even real?

I don't know what else I could be, but sometimes that's hard to grip to.

Reality has a very loose hold on me, and I often slip away...
When I come back, there are sometimes things that I've missed.

I ask myself, if I'm not real, then what's all the pain?

Every emotion-
I've laughed, I've bled, I've cried
Would I be feeling them were I not real?

Still, I am unsure.
I still find myself wondering if I am somehow a figment of my own imagination.


How often is it I find myself wishing things were different?
So many things, yet they never change.

They never did...
Perhaps they are now beginning to. Slowly...
Ever slowly.

As much as I wish things would change, I'm stuck with what I've got.
I appreciate it all.
Yet I can't help but long for better.

I believe I am selfish, and yet unsure if this is true.
I can't believe much of what I tell myself...
Or can I?
I'm very confused.


How does one obtain hapiness?
If I could be happy for like 5 minutes, that would be great.
Peaceful, and comfortable, and happy, only for five minutes. Apparently that's too much to ask for.

Sorry for my lack up posting, I wanted to get a new part of EFTS out today, but I'm stressed about absolutely everything and have been doing terribly. In 2 days I'll be out of town for a week, and likely won't have much time to write. I've been really busy, with art as well. There's just a lot going on...

Hope y'all are okay. Big thanks to anyone sticking around to read EFTS- it means the world to me. If you're unfamiliar, go read a chapter! If you ever get bored, you can just drop it. I do know there's some people here who are interested in fantasy and will read just about anything gay (not trying to be offensive-). EFTS is definitely for you, magic gays with never enough time and always too much trouble on their hands. Hope to see you there!

I'll quit talking now...


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  • The_Sunrise_Queen

    my goodness this is depressing. I am always here to talk if you need it, just go on to any of my pieces and rant to me, I will always be happy to listen :) also: now I need to read EFTS!

    4 months ago
  • Tachi

    It seems that I have to go read EFTS now.

    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    re: yayy happy writing! :))

    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    re: literally SO excited omg last night i couldn't stop thinking about what would happen next ahh i'm a little invested XD

    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    Re: well I suppose now I have to see what adventures they get caught up in!! :)

    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    Yayyyyyy magical gays

    I was reading efts a while ago but I missed a couple so I may need to go back and start if over... hmm :)

    4 months ago