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est. 4/15/2021
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500,000 people don't want to get out of bed

April 29, 2021

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i didn't want to wake up this morning.
the moment i opened my eyes 
and the yellow sunlight screamed into my vision,
its warmth felt more like a burn
and its light felt more blinding
than bright. 

immediately, i thought about things.
i thought about how i would have to talk to people,
and honestly it didn't seem so exciting.
i thought about how the weather wasn't warm yet
and how i just wasn't ready to step into the cold.
about how school was in an hour
and math was so hard
and frankly, trying seemed too pretentious. 
i thought about how i was hungry
but i didn't want to eat all that much and how
i didn't want to get ready all that much either,
for the same day,
the same routine,
the same small talk,
everything's so similar.
has time merged?

i thought about all these things
that i didn't really like
and shut my eyes as tightly as i could.

my alarm was still ringing 
outside of my tangled sheets.
6:00 AM but it was probably 6:10 by now.
somewhere in the world, i thought,
someone is also waking up right now.
actually, thousands of people are.
maybe even millions.
i imagined a million people's alarms 
beeping in synchronization, imagined
a million people rubbing the sleep
from their dream-longing eyes. at least 500,000 
didn't want to wake up, just like me.
at least half were dreading the day to come, just like me.
and somehow, in some odd way,
that made getting out of bed
the tiniest bit more bearable. 
somehow, it made getting out of bed
something i thought that maybe
i could do.

so i allowed my eyes to open,
let the soles of my feet 
kiss the cold floor,
and told myself i could do it
because 500,000 
were doing it too.

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8 Comments
  • crystalline•galaxies

    re: yeah! that outlook is such a good one to have. hope you have a lovely day as well.


    6 days ago
  • crystalline•galaxies

    i’m going to be coming back to this basically every day. just this morning, i was thinking about how much i didn’t want to wake up at all. like i know it’s normal to think that, but sometimes it gets worse and it feels like you’re alone. this piece really almost brought me to tears (in a good way). thank you so much for writing it. and i hope you’re doing well.


    9 days ago
  • psithurism

    re: Thank you. :)


    12 days ago
  • silent.perspective

    amazed. so glad i got to read this today. I felt like this when I woke up and couldn't have said it any better. <3


    13 days ago
  • journal.scribbles

    Wow. This is so incredibly powerful. Definitely bookmarking this for the days I don't want to get out of bed. Thank you for writing this!


    14 days ago
  • Avril

    Whoaa this is so good!! I love the thought of all those people getting out of bed. It's crazy that there are so many people with complete and complicated lives in the world. "and told myself i could do it/because 500 000/were doing it too." - this is so beautiful and also inspirational in the weirdest way! I have been having trouble wanting to get out of bed lately (haha it's because I go to bed too late) and tomorrow morning I'm going to think about this :) So thanks!


    14 days ago
  • ScarlettLucian

    This is such a relatable piece. There have been many mornings where I've been tempted to ignore my alarm and just go back into dreamland. But you're right, the thought of hundreds of thousands of others pushing through and doing the same and getting up really is encouraging.

    I also love rainy days, poetry, and poetry about rainy days. :)


    14 days ago
  • Busssy.Beee

    Haha, this is so relatable! I find it hard to get out of bed, as well xD


    14 days ago