Zirong

Singapore

- INTJ
- CA Alumni
- typical Libra
- Ravendor
- author of 1 book
- tennis & track team
- animes!!!
- singing & song writing & flute
- a perfectionist and a dreamer :)

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Message to Readers

feedback really appreciated! a TEDx talk in the form of spoken word poetry sounds fun :)

Why Write?

April 21, 2021

I’ve always remembered, and will continue to do so,
the grandmother of a little girl 
brought to life by tiny, simple letters
I found her on a dog-eared page of a book at the age of 4
It was over her departure I cried, tears falling down to the time-worn 
almost-black sofa in the living room in my house
That was the first time
words hit me 
so hard that seeds of them were planted deep within me
They later bloomed in my lungs making it
so so difficult to breathe

I don’t want to lose them
They should be stored somewhere,
somewhere that can bear their weight
somewhere that can keep them warm and fresh
somewhere they, as super picky creatures, 
are willing to call home
And eventually I found the “somewhere” at the age of 9
It was also at that time 
I realised
I wanted to become a writer 

Writing is like a mission
Writing plays tricks on me
drives me insane
but keeps me alive
Sometimes the words gently caress my face
But sometimes they turn out to be roses with thorns
which made me bleed before stories come into shape
I’ve been writing in Chinese for 10 years 
I like seeing each stroke of each character
dancing at the tip of my pen
I like to laugh with them or wipe away their tears
everything about them I held dear
In Grade 3 my very first novel was born
that wide-eyed me was so proud but now it’ll likely be torn(laugh)
By Grade 6
as nothing is ever impossible for kids
I’d scribbled down around 100 thousand Chinese characters in my notebooks 
Some stories were never finished and some were without hooks
They are now mostly laughed at 
but something deep under the graphite or ink 
would make my eyes light up each time
There are sparks between crooked rhythms and 
unskilled rhymes
At some random moments 
it feels as if my whole primary school life breathes within the pages 
and becomes more lively as lines progress and words flow
It never ages

But my journey was not always smooth
4 years ago I signed my name on a contract
And so many changes ensue
I waved goodbye to the small city I wrote so many poems 
to complain about 
but at the same time am always madly in love with
I thought, “it’s not a big deal moving away”
but then writer’s block hit me in the face 
All of a sudden I was no longer able 
to squeeze out a single word that was not pathetic or awkward
No story, no poetry, no fable
My life was moving backwards
The characters paled, like the bleached years
They became mere strokes 
I could not sense any breath between the lines 
My passion was dead. I can no longer
express what’s left unsaid 
It can be difficult to get used to something
It takes time to be back on track when you no longer use something 
I started to speak more English than Chinese
but couldn’t write in the former with ease 
Flipping my notebook to a new page
The only thing in my mind is a blank space
Voice telling me to give it up
just give it up
But how could I let go of my life source so easily?
It was keeping me up 
After two years’ pain
my writer’s block was finally slain 
by an hour-long phone call 
and passion that remained
at the bottom of my heart

Now I’ve been writing in English for 2 years
I’m active on various writing platforms
and made friends from around the globe 
Writing helps store my crazy ideas and quirks
my imagination that overflows
Writing is a sublime outlet of feelings
that are better expressed in words, not words
Sometimes I write at request 
Other times I write because no one listens
I’ve written down laughter, growth, jokes, beautiful memories
as well as 
tears, anger, stress, and painful solitude
And all of the above
I believe, are shared by all of you
You don’t have to be a writer
You can write just to communicate
to be listened
to turn off the noise
You can just write for fun
for catharsis 
for a random impulse 
You don’t have to write to gain
but you should write, to not lose

 
first time writing a spoken word piece... Not even sure whether this can be called a spoken word piece :''
oh yea and I hope the messy rhyme pattern works :''

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  • only_a_mirage (bird)

    wow, this is absolutely amazing!!! also i noticed that you run track do you do shotput?? if you do do you have any tips i really want to get to a 30 by the end of the season.


    4 months ago
  • Starlitskies

    I can't. I just can't. This is so bare and raw and naked and beautiful. I'm sorry you had to feel the pain of the possibility of losing writing, that must've been terrible and I'm glad that you found your voice again. I can't even imagine what I would do if I lost the part of me that writes. Your story is really heartfelt and it flows seamlessly with your words. There are so many beautiful lines.
    "That was the first time
    words hit me
    so hard that seeds of them were planted deep within me
    They later bloomed in my lungs making it
    so so difficult to breathe

    I don’t want to lose them
    They should be stored somewhere,
    somewhere that can bear their weight
    somewhere that can keep them warm and fresh
    somewhere they, as super picky creatures,
    are willing to call home " - I really love the metaphor here.
    "They are now mostly laughed at
    but something deep under the graphite or ink
    would make my eyes light up each time
    There are sparks between crooked rhythms and
    unskilled rhymes" - The imagery is wonderful and excellent word choice. <3
    And the fourth from last line, it reminds me of your piece "Interlude". It's possibly the first of your pieces that I ever came across on wtw, and I remember how brilliantly nuanced it was. I'm telling you, you're going to go far with your writing! So proud of you, my twin sis! <3


    5 months ago
  • _Delphiruns2theocean_

    Stunning!
    Re: Thank you! I don't have much confidence in it, my friends love it, but that's very nice of you to say :) If you don't mind me asking, are you a blonde as well..?


    5 months ago
  • ~Zoe~

    re: aw thank you so much!!


    5 months ago
  • V-Rose

    So... I revised the first chapter of Moonburn. Please check it out, and if you don't want to read the revised version, at least read the footnotes. Thanks so much!
    https://writetheworld.com/groups/1/shared/231055/version/489749


    5 months ago
  • ☃︎ KatelynsCupcakes ☃︎

    Re: Hello! Sorry for this super late reply to your peer review, but I commented on the review and I don't think you got notified. However, I wanted to say thank you so much for that insightful review, Zirong! I hope to use this review to improve the quality of this poem, and the time you put into this is much appreciated! Also, I really loved how you answered the second peer review question, as many others who did a review for me said that was their favorite line, but each of them had wildly different interpretations. When I read your answer, I found that your interpretation was exactly what I was thinking about! Thank you again for doing this, and have a wonderful day!

    Also, I put another comment on the review about the form, but it's somewhat long. Anyways, sorry for the bother, have a nice day, and thanks for your review!


    5 months ago
  • ANSON REYNOLDS

    re: DANG---are you enjoying it??


    5 months ago
  • ANSON REYNOLDS

    Oh my LORD this is fabulous! And I totally think the rhyming scheme works. And ohhhh my goshhh it totally works as a spoken word piece. What did you sign a contract for??? You have me intrigued :))


    5 months ago