Melancholy Celestial

United States

she/her | 15 | Demi-Bi
September 8, 2020
Its not exactly a summer hiatus.

Message to Readers

Final Draft! Fixed the last stanza, and decided that I don't need to keep worrying about it :)
Take time for yourself today<3

In defense of self interest.

April 13, 2021

I've always had a problem
with my selflessness
because to be honest
it isn't

every kind thing I've done
is a product of me
realizing that I benefited
Is that okay? Possibly

It will make me feel superior
helping you up off the floor
that's why I'm doing it
self-esteem restored

but as long as I don't bother
I define it as self-interest
better for my moral code
then saying that I'm selfish

I believe there's a difference
between the couple
one's just thinking of me
the other's a recipe for trouble

still, the guilt of not
being flawless is a drag
Can I justify my actions?
Find some space in moral grey?

I'm, not a bad person
those don't exist
just people with complex problems
and trauma they can't admit

so if I can do something good
it doesn't need a valid reason,
give myself a little slack
accept that every action is uneven?

there's a pro and a con
but, right and wrong?
No, our world is complicated
and everybody should belong

good and bad, only end up
drawing lines in the sand.
People are divided
an' tend to misunderstand

it will be difficult to
let go of old notions
to let the lines in the sand
be erased by the ocean

and there will be those
trying to draw them again
don't join, come take a hand
I don't mind being,
                            your self-interested friend.
Yay! Competition time! I was unsure of this at first, but am coming around to it. I appreciate any and all constructive criticism, and if there is something you want me to review, comment below!

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1 Comment
  • aashnapawar

    this was super interesting and fun to read i love the last stanza! great job!

    5 months ago