Melancholy Celestial

United States

she/her | 15 | Demi-Bi
September 8, 2020
Its not exactly a summer hiatus.

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Draft 3! Fixed some of the rhyme scheme and other edits.
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In defense of self interest.

April 11, 2021

I've always had a problem
with my selflessness
because to be honest,
it isn't.

every kind thing I've done
is a product of me
realizing that I benefited
Is that okay? Possibly.

It will make me feel superior
helping you up if you're on the floor
that's why I'm doing it.
self-esteem restored.

but as long as I don't bother
I define it as self-interest,
better for my moral code
then saying that I'm selfish.

I believe there's a difference,
between the couple
one's just thinking of me
the other's a recipe for trouble.

still, the guilt of not
being flawless is a drag
Can I justify my actions?
Find some space in moral grey?

I'm, not a bad person
those don't exist
just people with complex problems
and trauma they can't admit

so if I can do something good
it doesn't need a valid reason,
give myself a little slack
accept that every action is uneven?

there's a pro and a con
but, right and wrong?
No, our world is complicated
and everybody should belong

good and bad, only end up
drawing lines in the sand.
People are divided
an' tend to misunderstand.

it will be difficult to
let go of old notions,
to let the lines in the sand
be erased by the ocean.

and there will be those,
trying to draw them again.
don't join, come and take a hand
I don't mind being,
                            your self-interested friend.
Yay! Competition time! I was unsure of this at first, but am coming around to it. I appreciate any and all constructive criticism, and if there is something you want me to review, comment below!

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  • elliem

    "I'm, not a bad person / those don't exist / just people with complex problems / and trauma they can't admit"

    This is really, really good. I especially love these lines above. Your rhyme scheme works excellently without feeling forced, and some of the lines are just *chef's kiss*. Wonderful.

    4 months ago
  • psithurism

    ooh you're so close to 100 pieces!

    4 months ago