Melancholy Celestial

United States

she/her | 15 | Demi-Bi
September 8, 2020
Its not exactly a summer hiatus.

Message to Readers

Draft 2 (mostly minor edits)
I missed the review window, but that's ok!

In defense of self interest.

April 8, 2021

I've always had a problem
with my selflessness
because to be honest,
it isn't.

every kind thing I've done
is a product of me
realizing that I benefited
Is that okay? Possibly.

I'll help you, sure,
but I'm doing it because
it makes me feel superior,
self-esteem restored.

but as long as I don't hurt
I define it as self-interest,
better for my moral code
then saying that I'm selfish.

I believe there's a difference,
between the two
one's just thinking of me
the other impairs you.

still, the guilt of not
being flawless is a drag
Can I justify my actions?
Find some space in moral grey?

I'm, not a bad person
those don't exist
just people with complex problems
and trauma they can't admit

so if I can do something good
it doesn't need a valid reason,
give myself a little slack
accept that every action is uneven?

there's a pro and a con
but, right and wrong?
No, our world is complicated
and everybody should belong

good and bad, only
draw lines in the sand.
People are divided
an' tend to misunderstand.

it will be difficult to
let go of old notions,
to let the lines in the sand
be erased by the ocean.

and there will be those,
trying to draw them again.
don't join in, come and take a hand
I don't mind being,
                            your self-interested friend.
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  • nolongeractive

    This is beautiful! Good job! I really love all of the power and signifigance in this piece!! It is breathtaking! You have so much talent and I cannot wait to see what you share next!

    5 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    still love love love this :)

    6 months ago