Melancholy Celestial

United States

she/her | 15 | Demi-Bi
September 8, 2020
Its not exactly a summer hiatus.

Message from Writer

Hello, Hello, and Hey.
An introverted introduction is in order,
but I don't know what to say.

In defense of self interest.

April 7, 2021

I've always had a problem
with my selflessness
because to be honest,
it isn't.

every kind thing I've done
is a product of me
realizing that I benefited
Is that okay? Possibly

I'll help you, sure
but I'm doing it because
it makes me feel superior,
self-esteem restored.

but as long as I don't hurt
I define it as self-interest,
better for my moral code
then calling it selfishness

I believe there's a difference,
between the two
one's just thinking of me
that other impairs you

still, the guilt of not
being flawless is a drag
Can I justify my actions?
Find some space in moral grey?

I'm, not a bad person
those don't exist
just people with complex problems
and trauma they can't admit

so if I can do something good
it doesn't need a valid reason,
 give myself a little slack
accept that every action is uneven?

there's a pro and a con
but, right and wrong?
No, our world is complicated
and everybody should belong

good and bad, only
draw lines in the sand.
People are divided
and tend to misunderstand.

it will be difficult to
let go of old notions,
to let the lines in the sand
be erased by the ocean.

and there will be those,
trying to draw them again.
don't join in, come and take a hand
I don't mind being,
                            your self-interested friend.
Yay! Competition time! I was unsure of this at first, but am coming around to it. I appreciate any and all constructive criticism, and if there is something you want me to review, comment below!

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  • psithurism

    re: I'm enjoying too much to stop at just the planets my dear friend! ;) I'm going to probably do other spacey things like the stars, the moon, and the v o i d. *dramatic music* XD Thank you so much for your encouraging words! <3

    6 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    yayyy i love this!! like kiwi said, i didn't really realize anyone else felt the same... this is a really good poem, and it flows REALLY well. we're all flawed, my friend. i love youuuuu

    6 months ago
  • psithurism

    re: ahhhhhh thank you so much, Mel! (Is it okay if I call you that on here? It just seems... right...) Also, oh my goodness this is spectacular and I didn't know anyone else felt like this sometimes. Gosh, sometimes every single little thing I do feels fake, when I know it's not? ilysm <3

    6 months ago