☃︎ KatelynsCupcakes ☃︎

United States

Cupcakes. Family. Ducks. And Cupcakes (and more family of course)!

ESFP for life (or for now)!

Learner of the ukulele!

I love playing tennis!

Does anyone else out there CAD (Computer-Aided Design)?

Message to Readers

Hello! Please send me any feedback you've got! I love to see both Peer Reviews or comments (but PRs are much appreciated), and I thank everyone for their help! Special thanks for those who already have done a PR for me and gotten this poem to where it is now!

A Persona Can Be Changed; A Person Cannot

April 14, 2021

See my face for what it is, not what I show.
I'm ashamed and sickened by myself.
See my persona, which hides me like a storm of snow.

My true feelings are difficult to reach like a top shelf.
No one can get to them, not even me.
But I don't need honesty, since nobody wants my true self.

Sorrow is costly, but smiles are handed out for free.
The preferences I express are no longer mine
But I paste on a persona, a false expression of glee.

Really behind this front, the girl that can actually shine
Manipulates my every mood, thought, and embarrassing flush.
She slowly takes away who I am, my crimson blood dripping like a cracked bottle of wine.

But now, I see myself wearing something other than a constant blush.
She has only changed how I seem, not who I am.
My reality is no longer blurred in a thick, malicious mush.

I am no longer willing to keep closing up like a clam.
I'm finally ready to accept that despite the blood she took, I still have my heart.
And that heart pumps out fresh blood that washes away my great sham.

My identity unveiled, I can get my start
As my own proud person, not as another's puppet
I no longer fear not looking the part.

I cannot stand bright and tall without a shred of wit.
Despite years of hiding, I've emerged like Punxetawny Phil.
But my shadow is gone for good now, wiped away by grit.

So, understand that even though I've hidden as an insignificant krill
I'm a mighty whale at heart, a being none could tame, strong and hard-fought.
And nobody can take that spirit away from me, as I stand with a powerful will.

Anybody with truly great empathy, compassion, and thought
Would then have realized at this very point
A persona can be changed; a person cannot.

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  • ☃︎ KatelynsCupcakes ☃︎

    Thank you LeeAnne Natalia!

    22 days ago
  • LeeAnne Natalia

    So love the image you portray in the poem . I usually try to change who I am just to please those who don't even try to change for me .I love the whole vibe

    22 days ago
  • Sophiascb

    re- omg I was thinking of CalTech too! It's a super small school ;) Stanford, UC Berkeley... if i went in the direction of engineering

    23 days ago
  • Sophiascb

    re- that's so cool!! I'm thinking of being a biochemical engineer or a chemical engineer, we'll see. I also love writing ;) what college do you want to go to?

    23 days ago
  • ☃︎ KatelynsCupcakes ☃︎

    Thank you JACOB HOUSTON!

    24 days ago
  • nolongeractive

    This piece is just so magnificent and I am obsessed with the word choice and deep meaning, you really are very talented and I cannot wait to see what else you come up with!

    24 days ago
  • Tachi

    This should not hurt me, oh, but it does

    24 days ago
  • LadyBug...

    re: Cool thanks! I'll check it out!

    25 days ago
  • Yellow Sweater

    Re: thanks for commenting! i am glad it was helpful and I am really looking forward to reading your updated version:)

    25 days ago
  • ☃︎ KatelynsCupcakes ☃︎

    Hello LadyBug! Yes, I used to be on my school's robotics team! You can sign up to CAD for free using the platform OnShape. If you've ever used SolidWorks, OnShape is like Google Docs, and SolidWorks looks more like Microsoft Word! Let me know if you need any help!

    25 days ago
  • LadyBug...

    You do CAD? No fair! I was going to get to do it this year at school, but it got canceled!

    25 days ago