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it takes two to break a heart

est. 11/10/19

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Message to Readers

Okay, backstory: Most of this is true. In fact, the only false one is 'the first on the moon'. I just needed something.

Yes, the doctors thought my head was too big for my body, which is why I had a CT scan. And people ask me why I like Grey's Anatomy.

Review4Review!! Let me know what piece you want me to review, and I'll have it done in the next 2 days.

Refrains To My Past Selves

April 12, 2021

Dear infant me
That CT machine looks scary, I can imagine that's true
Just imagine it's a spaceship
You're gonna be the first child on the moon, aren't you?

Dear two-year-old me
The hill is the only way home, even if it looks steep
Don't close your eyes when Mommy drives up it
Open them, and look at the trees

Dear three-and-a-half-year-old me
You have a little brother! I know you wanted a girl,
But hey, at least he won't steal your Barbie's, will he?
He did steal your cars though.....

Dear four-year-old me
It isn't a bad thing, staying late in school
Mommy had to work, and Daddy too
Play with the blocks, watch the kids swimming in the pool

Dear five-and-three-quarters me
Moving isn't the worst thing ever
You'll make new friends
And the old ones will still be there

Dear seven-year-old me
She's a good person
Open up to her,
Make a new friend

Dear eight-year-old me
It's okay to stand up for yourself
You have a voice
Use it

Dear nine-(almost ten)-year-old me
No one came to your birthday, but that's okay, it's a tiny detail in the plot
You've got your violin, and your books
That's all you need, is it not?

Dear ten-year-old me
Please don't cry over your incomplete work
It doesn't matter
You're still you, and that's all that does

Dear eleven-year-old me
Ask Daddy if you can learn the piano
I see how you stare at it during violin class
And if he says you won't stick with it, well, you will, don't worry.

Dear twelve-year-old me
There isn't any shame in not being able to dance
It's okay if you don't look perfect
All that matters is that you have fun

Dear thirteen-year-old me
I know how much you despise the violin
But hang in there, deep down, you love it
You just can't see it right now

Dear fourteen-year-old me
The world's pretty crazy right now
Honestly, being the cynical person you are, you thought you'd be dead by now
But you're not, so live

Dear fifteen-year-old me
Focus on your studies, it'll be an important year
I don't know yet what's going to happen, but whatever does
Don't ever give up

Fourteen and two-thirds you

I've gone through like seven different poems to enter, but I think I've finally settled on one. Let me know what you think!

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  • Tachi

    I just love that ending... well I love the while thing so yeah...

    6 months ago
  • birthdaycandles

    I LOVE the ending especially <3 "Don't ever give up" warmed my heart, and motivated me to ace my upcoming exams! thanks sunV!!!! and gl in the competition!!!!

    6 months ago
  • lochnessie

    aaagh the review still hasn't shared! but i still love this and can't stop reading it hahaha

    6 months ago
  • lochnessie

    review submitted!

    6 months ago
  • lochnessie

    wow!! review on its way <3

    6 months ago
  • nolongeractive

    This is amazing!!

    6 months ago
  • Sonder Fen and Mead (#words)

    Wonderful! I can really see the development in the poem. Do you play both the violin and the piano? That's what I gleam from the poem.

    6 months ago
  • aalawrites

    I love this poem! I think it perfectly captures the essence of growing up!

    Re: I definitely agree that the series isn't the same without the Cristina, Lexie, Mark and Derek. They were just such great characters that were instrumental to the show. In regards to favourite episodes, I really enjoyed watching the hospital shooting. That was so heartbreaking and riveting at the same time. I also remember an episode from an earlier season where there was this bomb in this guy's body? But, most of all I enjoyed the dynamic between the original interns, and Lexie and Mark. I think those characters really drove the show. Now, when I see stuff online from the show, I can't even recognise the characters. I think only Bailey, Webber and Meredith are left from the original cast.

    6 months ago
  • Nyla

    ooooh I really like this- the formatting is so cool and each year is very sadly written (which works to your advantage). I love the Dear nine-(almost ten)-year-old me because the rhyme is amazing and I think it carries a very important message. Great job! That's such a cool reason to like Grey's Anatomy. I'm so sorry for everything you've gone through. You're very strong. Hopefully, it helped to write about it :)

    6 months ago
  • sci-Fi

    "Honestly, being the cynical person you are, you thought you'd be dead by now / But you're not, so live"

    6 months ago
  • Rohan’s Defender (Semi-Active)

    Ooh, this is gorgeous. I got chills at about “but whatever does/don’t ever give up”.
    Re: aww, thank you! I’m so glad I can encourage you! I’m here for you, okay? Goodnight! :)

    6 months ago