Cosmogyral

United States

'cosmogyral' means to twirl around the universe but i'm just caleb.

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i'm caleb nk sa, i like alt-lofi, poetry, feminism and plants. no, i did not leave out any letters of my name and yes, i have a cat.

someone will call me by the name of a monster

March 31, 2021

FREE WRITING

13
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A collection of poems under one title.


something tugs.
like a wave against the shore
but i don't want to follow it.
i want it to pull me
suddenly to fly me across galaxies
to wherever i may find
whatever it is that will greet me.
i want it to pull me
to quench that insatiable want
to be desired somewhere.
no matter how dire the calling
it is not healthy,
but it is a reason for being present.
to quencg the lonlieness,
a lonliness so great
i think i'd rather die
than to feel it.
an unlucky number, four is very close in pronunciation to 'death'.
while this does not reference death, it does say something about my disposition with my inability to remain responsive. i tend to...disassociate, to put lightly. but this isn't about that, this is about the longing to not be alone as the loneliest person alive.
i don't think i've expressed to you how heavy this collection is going to be. it deal with my mental health, more bodily insecurities, the things i find ignorantly human.
i can only hope for the same support you've given to me this past year.
as ever, comment whatever you see, and thank you for giving my piece a read.

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2 Comments
  • Figwit

    For me, this evokes a kind of desperate feeling, a longing to belong, to be loved... It really is a beautiful piece!


    about 1 month ago
  • First Name Last Name

    wow, this is, amazing. it gives out this feeling of being alone in space, and how crushing it can be. very good job!


    about 1 month ago