Ramses IV

Saudi Arabia

Made in Pakistan
Music, anime, books, candles, the beach, and writing.
Book series in progress called "The Condemned Ones".

Message from Writer

Vivanum, moriendum est.
Feel free to ask me for book recs :)
Listening to:
Anchor-Novo Amor
The Night We Met-Lord Huron
Past Lives-sapientdream
House of Gold-Twenty One Pilots
3 am-Finding Hope
Roslyn-Bon Iver and St. Vincent


March 14, 2021


I cannot sleep
I've tried to tape my eyes shut, 
suffocating myself till I lose consciousness 
yet I still am awake
My mother comes in the middle of the night
to check if I am asleep
and I pretend only so she doesn't wonder
if I have a problem
So when she leaves 
I get out of bed and look out the window,
the tree outside is illuminated,
not by the moon hidden by clouds
but the streetlight, round, white, and blinding
and I sit there till sunrise,
still as a statue, a shell of a person,
with my head empty for once,
climbing back into bed when the first rays of sun appear
and the streetlight turns off
only then do I climb into bed
and pretend to wake up
for the sake of my mother.


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  • nolongeractive

    Re: Awww thanks so so so much, that means everything to me.

    6 months ago
  • nolongeractive

    This is outstanding and your words just are so lovely and impactful. Your writing will definitely change the world!

    6 months ago
  • Nyla

    Wow! I love this so much! It's so beautiful! This "I've tried to tape my eyes shut,
    suffocating myself till I lose consciousness " was so powerful! You're an amazing writer :)

    6 months ago
  • ArtCat

    Wow, so beautiful! Your small details and descriptions blow me away! I hope you get some good sleep though!

    6 months ago
  • schoolofrocky

    fantastic writing

    6 months ago
  • WolfyPop

    This is beautiful!

    6 months ago
  • WrenBirdWrites

    I love this! I used to do this when I was younger, because the streetlight was so bright, I would read all night and go days without sleep. I mean, sleep deprivation stinks, but like... I finished the Narnia series in three days... so, it was worth it for me XD Hope you're able to get some sleep! And thanks for writing this awesome piece!

    7 months ago
  • Lata.B

    I'm sorry you're having this problem, I love how you made a beautiful poem out of it.
    Re- Oh gosh! Same!! <3

    7 months ago
  • Kasilee

    I've been having alot of sleeping issues lately, so I feel this!

    7 months ago
  • Awesome Sienna

    Love love love! I left a review too.

    7 months ago