i learnt what the senses did.
i found peace in my mother's arms,
solace in my father's lap.
i learnt how to chew,
with brand new teeth,
learnt how to walk,
tried to run,
but i fell
i ran, with the wind in my hair
my skirt blew, but i didn't care.
my first tooth came out, earlier than supposed
i lived in the library with my mom
learning to read dora and dr. seuss
we welcomed a baby boy early summer
a miracle wrapped in cotton
i passed out chocolates with my best friend at the hospital that day
there was a boy in my super k,
he shared my love of reading, and would only listen to me
i wish we had kept in touch
i switched schools for the very first time
moving from tiny to huge
i wrote sentences and stories, found out so much about myself
i learnt what i was good at, and what not so much
soccer, dancing, wearing skirts....
i moved back to my first school,
with only eight people in my class
we played hide and seek on fridays
we put on a play for our parents, momotaro
i was a dog
we moved to india, after my grandfather passed.
then i started school in early june, not late august.
i made friends on the see-saw
i learnt that i loved being alone
i started the violin, and i hated it
with such a passion
we put up a concert,
i played a duet
rouessaeu's hymn, they called it
i didn't know how to bow to the audience
i became junior school captain, merely nine years old
i went for my first tuition, with my friend
there was a dog living on the short path from home to class
we were terrified of it
i moved again, to another state
my class was small, like i liked it
my teacher was great,
we lost touch.
i started another violin class, and when i performed
i knew how to bow to the audience
i listened as a man played the piano so beautifully, i knew i had to learn
i didn't have any friends yet, not ones i could open up to, so i poured my soul out to music
i joined my school's unofficial band/choir
i won my first inter-school competition
we played la marseillaise
i had a solo
it was wonderful
i got a ukulele for my birthday, something i had always wanted
i had a newfound love for pasta
i realised that i'm fine without a best friend
i ran for house vice captain, and i lost
i didn't mind
instead, i started writing
my friend told me about write the world
i signed up for it, and then i forgot about it
i started a youtube channel
i never took off
i grew, so much
i learnt how much of life i take for granted
i learnt what is important, and what is not
i learnt not simply how to survive (i learnt that fourteen years ago)
but how to live
and i'm still learning.
i'm sorry i disappeared for a few days. this was really personal to write, and made me think. about my old friends, about where my life is going, it brought back a little much. i hope you find happiness here.