Mr. Enoki

United States

(Previously The Campbell's Kid)
:)
15
Ally
INFP
He/Him/His
Supportive dad vibes
Introverted mushroom boy
I post periodically, but not always
Young artist with a focus on animation and character design

Message to Readers

This was suuuuper wood vomity but don't worry, this is the second draft, so I saved you guys from at least some of the ramblings haha :) I thought I would post it just as a little peek into a more loose style of my writing. I probably won't post much like this in the future, so if your new here, I promise I'm not usually this unpolished! Love you guys so much and thanks for all your constant support!

Dear Diary, I'm Still A Mess

February 28, 2021

FREE WRITING

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Everyone grows up,
Changes,
Leaving things behind

But ever since we met
I’ve been stuck 
Whether or not I wanted it
We were tied by silver strings
That dangled from our wrists

I thought you were the one I needed
The girl I was meant to fall in love with 
I ended up looking for myself in you
But no matter how hard I tried
I just couldn’t find my reflection

For years I just felt empty 
Never really reaching out
To find something to fill that void 

I know I loved you,
But for how long?

When did it stop?

I thought the answer was never
But now as I step away, I can see
That maybe when I lost you
I found what I needed 

I was with you since the beginning 
And I was there until the end
So I never really had the chance 
To learn who I was, or how I felt 

Maybe the emptiness wasn’t so empty after all
Instead filled with something invisible 
A change of perspective, 
A change in love

Now I’m just… confused 

I found myself crying the other day
Watching a show about an older brother
He fell in love with his closest friend 
He fell in love with a boy named Liam 

And I know it sounds trivial 
Unpoetic, boring 
But life isn’t a sonnet 
And I’m not a stanza 

I’m just back to being out of touch
With days, with nights, with weeks, with years 
With love

But maybe,
Just maybe
One day I can move on,

Start over

Find out who I am 
Who I was 
Who I need 

Everyone grows up,
Changes,
Leaving things behind

But I can’t forget
That sometimes 
People find something that’s brand new 

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8 Comments
  • nolongeractive

    This is so pretty and simple yet relatable. I cannot wait to see what you do next!


    about 2 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Re: Thank you! And cool I'll be sure to check that out when you do.


    2 months ago
  • Ava Marie

    This is so good!! "But life isn’t a sonnet
    And I’m not a stanza", this was my favourite line, I love it so much!!!!


    2 months ago
  • SamRose

    This is so deep! I can imagine the emotions and feel for the person in this poem. Is it a true story?


    2 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Oops I meant Zirong not During! Dang autocorrect lol.


    2 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    I actually really like this more unpolished style. It has an introspective yet conversational vibe that I'm here for, and I like the storytelling. The lines that During quoted are my favorite too.


    2 months ago
  • Zirong

    “And I know it sounds trivial/Unpoetic, boring/But life isn’t a sonnet/And I’m not a stanza”

    “I’m just back to being out of touch/With days, with nights, with weeks, with years/With love”

    Wow. This poem is of raw beauty and eye-opening profundity. It flows so perfectly that I’m left speechless. Amazing work!


    2 months ago
  • BriRiley

    Wow this has a really good message! This goes really deep into your thoughts and feeling, I think it says a lot about your thoughts and feelings! This is great!


    2 months ago