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"If I wait 'til my tomorrow comes, is the waiting all I've ever done?"
-Ben Platt

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"It's alright, it's okay. You're not a monster just human and you made a few mistakes,"
-It's Alright by Mother Mother

"One page of the bible isn't worth a life,"
-The Village by Wrabel

"A hundred bad days makes a hundred good stories and a hundred good stories makes me interesting at parties,"
-100 Bad Days by AJR

"With shortness of breath, you explained the infinite
How rare and beautiful it is to even exist"
-Saturn by Sleeping At Last.

"But there's a moment when you realize they're not superheroes or villains. They're painfully, unforgivably human. The question is can you forgive them for being human anyway?"
-Dry by Neal Shusterman

i don't deserve it

February 23, 2021



why do i feel like i don't deserve this

i don't deserve
the friends i've made
i don't deserve
all these followers
and i don't deserve
the love that's poured onto me

sometimes i wish i could say
fuck it
and be free of the responsibility
that comes with having friendships
because i was never deserving of them

i love them
but i hate myself
and assume they should hate me too
Thank you for 275 (now 277!) followers! I've been having a hard time lately so I really appreciate it <3


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  • ☆TwinklingLights☆

    re: that's super understandable, i get what you mean
    again, space or chat?
    i'm so sorry if i'm invading your personal space
    i just care haha

    6 days ago
  • ☆TwinklingLights☆

    hey <3
    checking in
    sending lots of love
    you doin okay?

    6 days ago
  • ChimChim_1

    Aww, im sorry, you feel this way. I to have moments where I feel I don't deserve what I have, but I know I was put here on earth for a reason, even if it's not for myself, and maybe for somebody else ill still be something. But reading your writing has encouraged me to do better. And I know your worth and deserve every dollar in the world, I hope you're doing okay. Sending lots of love <3<3:3:3

    7 days ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Re: ^U^

    7 days ago
  • ☆TwinklingLights☆

    re: okay!! <3
    i'll leave you to it
    but i'm sending lots of love your way
    you can do this. you got out of bed this morning and that is amazing. keep on trekking, river. <33333

    7 days ago
  • ☆TwinklingLights☆

    re: i'm sorry about that, i'll give you what you need
    do you need space or do you need to vent later?
    either are options

    7 days ago
  • ☆TwinklingLights☆

    river, you doing okay?

    7 days ago
  • beth r.

    boiiiiiiii no
    you do deserve it! like I can just tell how much of yourself you put into every piece. they're so vulnerable and relatable and genuine, which is all things everyone needs more of in their life.
    so do me a favor and allow yourself to feel proud and celebrate :)

    8 days ago

    This is so pretty.

    8 days ago
  • Syzygy (#words) (J.A.M)

    Congrats! You definitely deserve it! <3

    8 days ago
  • ☆TwinklingLights☆

    Aww, river, you totally deserve it. You're kind and caring and write amazing, amazing things
    friendship is hard, but i promise i'll always care for you and won't be toxic
    the last stanza is super relatable, but if its relatable to one person, you know you're not alone <3
    you are so worthy of all the love because you are very very compassionate
    you're also going through a lot, which is okay
    i'm here with love
    and thx for the other comment

    8 days ago