Lizzie R

United States

15
She/her
Virgo
Aspiring singer/songwriter
All of my songs are original unless specified as a rewrite in the title :)

"We promised no fixing." -Duplicity

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In My Head

February 13, 2021

FREE WRITING

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In the dark is where I show my emotions
Hid away from everyone 
No one can see me break down
I know it doesn’t make sense to most
It shouldn’t be this way and I should show how I really feel

But here in my room there’s no judgement
Just me and my thoughts running rampant all alone
If I share what’s in my head and no one understood
Where would I be? 
It would still just be all me but I’m trying to bring out another me
She’ll be better, she’ll be kind and she’ll be tough enough to take what others throw
But for now it’s just me and that’s okay 

My mother says I’m not alone and I know that
My friends tell me they’re here for me and I know that too
So why is it that when it really matters I can’t bring myself to speak up
It’s like my mouth is glued shut and my limbs weigh more than I can bear

But here in my room there’s no judgement 
Just me and my thoughts running rampant all alone
If I share what’s in my head and no one understood 
Where would I be?
It would still just be all me but I’m trying to bring out another me
She’ll be better, she’ll be kind and she’ll be tough enough to take what others throw
But for now it’s just me and that’s okay

Sometimes I just want to turn back time
To when I was just a child with a vibrant smile at every turn
Not a care in the world and happy as can be
Someday I’ll get to be that girl again but older
I’ll be a new me who can be the best I can be

But here in my room there’s no judgement 
Just me and my thoughts running rampant all alone
If I share what’s in my head and no one understood 
Where would I be?
It would still just be all me but I’m trying to bring out another me
She’ll be better, she’ll be kind and she’ll be tough enough to take what others throw
But for now it’s just me and that’s okay

Right now I’ll stay in my room in silence
In the dark of the night I’ll just cry
I’ll play music and read books as a distraction
From the pain inside my head all the time

And someday I’ll be the girl I wish to be
I'll get out of my head and I'll be happy again

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2 Comments
  • crystalline•galaxies

    i really love the way you repeat the line at the beginning of the second stanza over and over again. it was so tastefully done and made the whole piece just that more impactful. it's raw, real, and relatable (alliteration was not intentional). hope you're doing alright.


    3 months ago
  • wallflower

    This is absolutely amazing and I relate to it a lot. If you ever need to talk I'm always here. <3


    3 months ago