almost flora kane

United States

my pen name is flora kane. i'm a slytherin, infp-t, christian, and generally insane. joined 3.30.2018.

~ will do reviews on request ~

currently hoping i don't lose anyone else.

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feedback is appreciated:) i hope you're doing alright, i am, right now.

i could never fix you, and i see that now.

January 29, 2021

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it’s a simple truth that
while i hold the edges of your broken bowl together
you have the superglue, and 
nothing i can say will
ever secure those pieces together.
golden
is what i see
the idea that mended,
your cup will overflow past the 
streaks of glitter in the handle. 
kintsugi, it’s called, in japan
where repairing the broken thing is what 
truly, truly matters and 
the point that you were once broken
doesn’t
anymore. 
i see gold 
in the cracks and folds of your life where 
you and i, we weren’t constant, but 
i was different and you 
were afraid. 
are you still afraid? i think
yes, it’s resounding because somehow
you know one day the world is going to crash around you 
THE SKY IS F   LLING.
                  A      



(it hasn’t really sunk in yet.)
i wish i could be there when you have to melt down
the gold with your tears and paint the 
clouds back together.
since i know you’ll leave me standing
on the ladder,
reaching my hands up to the edges of your world,
holding two cracked pieces to each other,
waiting for you to fix it...
when the gold glitter superglue is sitting right next to your left hand. 
i’m tired. my fingers are tired, my head is tired, i am exhausted
from standing with my arms outstretched for so long.
it’s always been your choice.
now it will be yours and yours alone.
this is written for a friend who i have recently had to report for some of their behavior. i've spent years around her and watching her get better and then struggle again. mental health is so hard, and i understand that struggle, but she's refusing help and she's resigned to being this way now. i have a feeling that eventually she will realize i was the one who took a step to keep her responsible for her threats. that day, i will lose anything i ever had with her and more.

i hope she realizes eventually that all i ever wanted was for her to be happy, but only she can make that choice for herself. 

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15 Comments
  • Blue Jay

    That is a very difficult situation. I did that a few times, it really sucks, but in the end you are doing the right thing. A mad friend is better than a dead one, and mental illnesses are very hard. I wish the best for you and your friend, and amazing poem.
    I definitely felt the poem, and I love the analogy of the broken bowl and the glitter glue. Sometimes all you can do is hope the best for the people in life because it is ultimately their choice what to do.


    3 months ago
  • ~wildflower~

    Oh wow, that is a really hard situation to be in. It’s so hard when helping someone means doing the opposite of what they want. I hope everything works out eventually, for both of you.
    In other news, this poem - it’s stunning! Oh wow, your metaphors and imagery create such a beautiful and sorrowful picture. I have no idea how I haven’t come across your profile before, but I’m so glad I have now because your writing is amazing!


    3 months ago
  • remi'sgotinkstains

    beautiful poem . . . you'll get through this, i promise.


    3 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    Sorry in advance:

    https://writetheworld.com/groups/1/shared/215308/version/448286


    3 months ago
  • Zirong

    this is so beautifully sorrowful. I hope u r doing okay now <3


    3 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    and your poem is absolutely beautiful, i'm tearing up <3 wow


    3 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    oh dear i'm so sorry. i've been through the same thing. it's terrifying, and yet you're more terrified that if you don't do anything... yeah. i wish i could give you a hug (with permission). it's so hard. all of my prayers are with you and your friend <3 <3 <3 rosi is right - sleep is important. things look better in the morning (i don't know what time it is where you are but...)
    love <3 <3 <3


    3 months ago
  • deep_breaths

    re: i'm so glad you liked fine. i'm not sad at the moment which i'm extremely happy about but thank you so much for caring enough to say something


    3 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    re: DO IT, FILL IT BCS I LOST ALL MY BRAINCELLS WRITING IT


    3 months ago
  • beth r.

    i'm so sorry you have to go threw that :(
    gorgeous work
    re: aw thanks!


    3 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    y o f l o r a g o t a k e a rest.

    srsly, go take a rest. sleep helps everything.


    3 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    i - i wh-

    okay then lol


    3 months ago
  • anemoia (#words)

    also, your pfp and rosewall'd's pfp are just... can i get a cheer for aesthetics?! the color scheme ahh


    3 months ago
  • anemoia (#words)

    oh my gosh. i am so, so sorry. what a heartbreaking situation. (i know "situation" sounds so stilted and yucky, but i couldn't think of the right word.)
    re: on a brighter note, tysm! if only i had a definite melody for "Southern California" and haha it's ok my brain is fried too like what it a brain?


    3 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    "It’s a simple truth that
    while i hold the edges of your broken bowl together
    you have the superglue, and
    nothing i can say will
    ever secure those pieces together."

    when i tell you that made me cry; i cried.


    3 months ago