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'cosmogyral' means to twirl around the universe but i'm just caleb.

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on my nickname

January 22, 2021


'caleb' is a little-used unisex name. it's quite perfect that
its' use is majorly male,
because then, when someone makes fun of me,
i can snarkily say;
"'caleb' is also a girl's name." (the only amount of snark i allow myself in my life.)

but 'caleb' is perfect, because she is less likely to catch a male's attention, she is less likely 
to be at the end of a raised voice, 
because she is stronger, and
cooler and fiercer than me.

being a girl in an organization once founded for boys, it still is a 
male-dominated organization,
she won't hold her tongue in the face of sexism.
she is angry when it is thrown at her.
she golds anger as a close friend and she and him together
dominate the field.

i have never been touched without consent,
(lest it was the belt as a punishment, and i learned to be quiet and follow house rules)
but i have been yelled at
and neglected
and forced into a damp corner
by a male figure when i was young.

i am a scout. i love scouting,
i refuse to let something so stupid get in my way
of being a human.
a human teaching others to carve with a knife,
wilderness survival,
environmental science.

 caleb swears, and bites back. she has no posture and when camping she doesn't
brush her hair and it is never down.
she has hats and bandanas that wrap her forehead and a knife on her belt.
she went to the jamboree and she isn't afraid of dirt nor mud nor clay
infact she was the only one to kneel in the
wet grass and mud to tie clown knots to build the

caleb is not pretty to them, caleb is strong and sometimes bossy because
she knows what she's doing
and she wasn't there to be a sweetheart, they will soon learn.
she is no southern belle she came
to learn and she came to teach.
caleb is perfect because she is everything
simpleton society doesn't want a girl to be.


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  • resident philocalist

    i just nominated this for the WTW pick. its beautifully written and truly a work of art. <3 keep writing, caleb :)

    4 months ago
  • Minvra

    And I can see how you put your heart and soul into this. Thank you for sharing this with us.

    7 months ago
  • _Delphiruns2theocean_

    Just wow, this is amazing and I love it! Please consider checking out a piece or two of mine maybe I'm Not Your Prize and the sequel I'm Not Your Edited Version (part 2 of I'm Not Your Prize!) and/or Princesses: Role Models or Standards? You are a great writer and I sincerely hope you can find the time to check those out! Everyone else feel free as well!

    8 months ago
  • (sk)eyesofocher

    8 months ago
  • (sk)eyesofocher

    oooh I love this so much.
    I think I'll try one too, if that's alright?

    8 months ago
  • resident philocalist


    8 months ago
  • kiranpark

    re: thank you so much !!

    8 months ago
  • resident philocalist

    astounding. i kind of want to do my own now :)

    8 months ago
  • deep_breaths

    re: LOL ngl same

    8 months ago
  • nopenopenope

    yes queen, just yes queeeeen

    8 months ago
  • journal.scribbles

    I love the... idk, forceful? determined? tone of this poem (unlike the confusing/confused nature and tone of this comment lol). Seriously though, this is so good. It's like you know what you want to say, and you're going to say it. Keep being everything simpleton society doesn't want us to be. I respect you so much for that. Incredible piece!!!

    re: thank you for the kind comment!!

    8 months ago
  • U S E R N A M E S (W R IT I NG HIA T US)

    You should try!
    They publish for free, I have to get more info on it though.
    Search it up!

    8 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    oh. my. gosh. yes.
    this is so powerful and strong and i love it. and i've always admired your name - nickname? - and how down-to-earth and real it sounds. me, i've got a really girly name, and even the nickname i've started going by is pretty feminine, so... idk.
    just... like your name, i guess :) hope you're well

    8 months ago
  • Rose A

    Wow. I've heard of Caleb being used as a girl name, but I don't think I've ever met a girl with the name. I think that's pretty cool. Anyway, great piece!

    8 months ago