'caleb' is a little-used unisex name. it's quite perfect that
its' use is majorly male,
because then, when someone makes fun of me,
i can snarkily say;
"'caleb' is also a girl's name." (the only amount of snark i allow myself in my life.)
but 'caleb' is perfect, because she is less likely to catch a male's attention, she is less likely
to be at the end of a raised voice,
because she is stronger, and
cooler and fiercer than me.
being a girl in an organization once founded for boys, it still is a
she won't hold her tongue in the face of sexism.
she is angry when it is thrown at her.
she golds anger as a close friend and she and him together
dominate the field.
i have never been touched without consent,
(lest it was the belt as a punishment, and i learned to be quiet and follow house rules)
but i have been yelled at
and forced into a damp corner
by a male figure when i was young.
i am a scout. i love scouting,
i refuse to let something so stupid get in my way
of being a human.
a human teaching others to carve with a knife,
caleb swears, and bites back. she has no posture and when camping she doesn't
brush her hair and it is never down.
she has hats and bandanas that wrap her forehead and a knife on her belt.
she went to the jamboree and she isn't afraid of dirt nor mud nor clay
infact she was the only one to kneel in the
wet grass and mud to tie clown knots to build the
caleb is not pretty to them, caleb is strong and sometimes bossy because
she knows what she's doing and she wasn't there to be a sweetheart, they will soon learn.
she is no southern belle she came
to learn and she came to teach.
caleb is perfect because she is everything
simpleton society doesn't want a girl to be.