Ren(hiatus)

Pakistan

16 years old
She/her
Muslim
XNFJ (or so the internet says)

"I just wanna be happier, is that too greedy"
Blue and Grey by BTS

Message to Readers

Ugh

You're still expecting something, huh?

January 21, 2021

FREE WRITING

5
The mirror infront of me shatters.
Do you know why?
because you forgot I'm still a kid.
I can't deal with your expectations.
I can't deal with your perception
of me
and now I can't find myself.

All the pieces of the mirror
are on the ground.
I see them and yet I don't want
to pick them up, huh?
The damage can never be unwound,
you knew that and you still expected more.
Actually, you know what fuck you.
Fuck you for existing.
Fuck you for existing.

Hey, let's calm down now.
The problem isn't with you, it's with me.
I believed your lies that I was special
and succumbed to the way,
your words danced.
I believed I was special but not now
because some part of my heart
wants to give you nightmares
with it's own terrifying sounds.
Lets just say exams have made me angry. God I'm really tired hahaha 

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4 Comments
  • useless :)

    Re: thank you! :)


    about 1 month ago
  • Jason_claire :)

    I get that, tests are so stressful and frustrating and life-sucking . . . .
    replying- Thank you, I'm not really a poem person, so I'm glad you liked it. Yeah, I'm pretty alright. I take it exams aren't probing such amazing emotions, but I'm here if you want to talk <3


    about 1 month ago
  • Lata.B

    ugh for real exams suck. I've been also having such a hard time but you got this!


    about 1 month ago
  • bunnybeige

    i feel you. be strong, mate.


    about 1 month ago